So why waste more life away in a depressed funk? I wasted seven years in a deep depression and then how many more after leaving the service. What a waste of life, spending it doing nothing but wallowing in self-pity, bemoaning past mistakes and all the should haves and could haves that never happened.
Either I'm hideously unattractive or I have the worst luck ever or both.
Or you're looking in all the wrong places for love? For me, some of the most satisfying relationships were found through very unconventional methods (and by total accident). People know when you're trying and pushing too hard for a relationship and tend to back away. Just enjoy the time you get with people without the expectations. If something happens and develops between you and the other person, great! But if it doesn't, don't get discouraged!
I can't wait to get on the happy pills again.
...Even though I'm of the school of thought that pills alone are not the answer to all psychological issues, many people find them helpful in being able to have a semi-functional life. Remember, these happy pills aren't a miracle drug. They just help. You still need to be good to yourself and say good things to yourself (even if you think it's stupid or untrue. Do it anyway, for as long as it takes.)
I really wish I was a better person at 17, but I just didn't know any better and now I'm screwed.
You aren't screwed. You're still learning and making mistakes, but you're learning. Maybe the journey's taking longer than expected but it shouldn't be considered wasted time. Just think of how wonderful it'll feel when you finally find this person. It could take years to find them but wouldn't it be worth it?
And so what if you end up 40 and single? You can still be happy and be single. It *is* possible. Personally, I'd rather be 40 and single than be 40 and stuck with some abusive jackass I can't stand.
And dude, you were 17! How many guys that age are enlightened beings when it comes to this stuff? We were all stupid at that age. Don't be so hard on yourself. You can't get that time back anyway so why stress over it?
There's still time! You're really only as old as you feel and as long as you're young on the inside, you'll always be young. Everyone on this planet is getting older each day. Why sweat it? (When you're older, you'll look back and consider your 30s as still being a young sprat, so enjoy your time while you have it. You're not old *yet*!)
We can't control how we feel and I've been in that mindset and that's what's fueled the cycle of self doubt and sadness. However, we can control, well, to a much greater degree than what we feel, what we think. We also can surround ourselves with awesome people. You are awesome. Everyone who's posted here? Awesome. I just need to change something.
I'm thinking the happy pills will take the edge off the sadness and let me lead a more fruitful emotional life even if I'm still kind of sad. I can distract myself away from the pain and start focusing on the joy. That's how it went last time at any rate.
So why waste more life away in a depressed funk? I wasted seven years in a deep depression and then how many more after leaving the service. What a waste of life, spending it doing nothing but wallowing in self-pity, bemoaning past mistakes and all the should haves and could haves that never happened.
Either I'm hideously unattractive or I have the worst luck ever or both.
Or you're looking in all the wrong places for love? For me, some of the most satisfying relationships were found through very unconventional methods (and by total accident). People know when you're trying and pushing too hard for a relationship and tend to back away. Just enjoy the time you get with people without the expectations. If something happens and develops between you and the other person, great! But if it doesn't, don't get discouraged!
I can't wait to get on the happy pills again.
...Even though I'm of the school of thought that pills alone are not the answer to all psychological issues, many people find them helpful in being able to have a semi-functional life. Remember, these happy pills aren't a miracle drug. They just help. You still need to be good to yourself and say good things to yourself (even if you think it's stupid or untrue. Do it anyway, for as long as it takes.)
I really wish I was a better person at 17, but I just didn't know any better and now I'm screwed.
You aren't screwed. You're still learning and making mistakes, but you're learning. Maybe the journey's taking longer than expected but it shouldn't be considered wasted time. Just think of how wonderful it'll feel when you finally find this person. It could take years to find them but wouldn't it be worth it?
And so what if you end up 40 and single? You can still be happy and be single. It *is* possible. Personally, I'd rather be 40 and single than be 40 and stuck with some abusive jackass I can't stand.
And dude, you were 17! How many guys that age are enlightened beings when it comes to this stuff? We were all stupid at that age. Don't be so hard on yourself. You can't get that time back anyway so why stress over it?
There's still time! You're really only as old as you feel and as long as you're young on the inside, you'll always be young. Everyone on this planet is getting older each day. Why sweat it? (When you're older, you'll look back and consider your 30s as still being a young sprat, so enjoy your time while you have it. You're not old *yet*!)
/ramblage
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We can't control how we feel and I've been in that mindset and that's what's fueled the cycle of self doubt and sadness. However, we can control, well, to a much greater degree than what we feel, what we think. We also can surround ourselves with awesome people. You are awesome. Everyone who's posted here? Awesome. I just need to change something.
I'm thinking the happy pills will take the edge off the sadness and let me lead a more fruitful emotional life even if I'm still kind of sad. I can distract myself away from the pain and start focusing on the joy. That's how it went last time at any rate.
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