Does writing things down help?
I need to admit this somewhere
I keep falling in love with people, and almost never *out* of it
That brings BIG problems and it's piling up!
I'd want to be under control as well, but I don't even trust myself enough for commiting at this point.
At one point it made a disaster for what could have been an engagement or simply a new relationship. Instead, I lit the candles by both ends to only have one thing right by the end of it. Now I can't seem to "stop" anymore. Is it just a bad coincidence that these "moments" are all happening next to each other or is it going to happen again in the future?
I think that a person never ceases to be special to you, just not in the same way after circumstances change I guess, but they're special forever and you'll always care. I guess that's a good thing, but trouble arises when you start caring *too* much again. Or is it even wanting the person at that point?
With the path I'm walking, it's like desserts. Sure you like ice cream, but sometimes you want cake! But then you want ice cream again some other day, cause you like both really. Let's add candies now! And they'll always all be good! You'll always want one of them at some point!
What the hell -_- I just hope that's the end of it and it's a big nasty coincidence that all those good desserts came at the same time/one after the other too quickly. At least that would mean it's coincidence.
Now to wonder if I'm doing the right things by not settling down cause I can't commit, but it just keeps hurting/complicating things around. But what's the point of settling down and being unstable?
I'll just hope that I'm overly thinking things.
I keep falling in love with people, and almost never *out* of it
That brings BIG problems and it's piling up!
I'd want to be under control as well, but I don't even trust myself enough for commiting at this point.
At one point it made a disaster for what could have been an engagement or simply a new relationship. Instead, I lit the candles by both ends to only have one thing right by the end of it. Now I can't seem to "stop" anymore. Is it just a bad coincidence that these "moments" are all happening next to each other or is it going to happen again in the future?
I think that a person never ceases to be special to you, just not in the same way after circumstances change I guess, but they're special forever and you'll always care. I guess that's a good thing, but trouble arises when you start caring *too* much again. Or is it even wanting the person at that point?
With the path I'm walking, it's like desserts. Sure you like ice cream, but sometimes you want cake! But then you want ice cream again some other day, cause you like both really. Let's add candies now! And they'll always all be good! You'll always want one of them at some point!
What the hell -_- I just hope that's the end of it and it's a big nasty coincidence that all those good desserts came at the same time/one after the other too quickly. At least that would mean it's coincidence.
Now to wonder if I'm doing the right things by not settling down cause I can't commit, but it just keeps hurting/complicating things around. But what's the point of settling down and being unstable?
I'll just hope that I'm overly thinking things.