Holiday blues
I hate the Holidays.
Well, sort of...
I always get this feeling like everyone wants to hurt me
too many people laughing, talking, hugging...it should make me happy, but it only makes me feel sick. :(
That and Dan keeps calling me, wanting to talk about "christmas/thanksgiving" plans.
I cant bear seeing him every Christmas,
I dont like being the daughter of the black sheep
the one who always ruins the holiday for everyone else, showing up blasted and getting in fights, knocking over the tree on their way out,
and whose problem is that? Apparently mine.
I can never enjoy the holidays because everyone acts like its my job to handle my crazy ass dad.
Taija is the official babysitter.
its sick.
and when he freaks out, you know who gets blamed?
Taija does.
Its Taija's fault.
And for gods sake why did he name her Taija anyway?
As if I am not disrespected enough, lets give her a pornstar name.
As if I'm going to show up to the family gatherings in knee high socks and pasties.
not that he would mind...
-_-
Oh how dark my mind can be.
Hmm,
school is going amazing though!
I have never been so happy with my academic performance.
I guess being a perfectionist can pay off sometimes...
Well, sort of...
I always get this feeling like everyone wants to hurt me
too many people laughing, talking, hugging...it should make me happy, but it only makes me feel sick. :(
That and Dan keeps calling me, wanting to talk about "christmas/thanksgiving" plans.
I cant bear seeing him every Christmas,
I dont like being the daughter of the black sheep
the one who always ruins the holiday for everyone else, showing up blasted and getting in fights, knocking over the tree on their way out,
and whose problem is that? Apparently mine.
I can never enjoy the holidays because everyone acts like its my job to handle my crazy ass dad.
Taija is the official babysitter.
its sick.
and when he freaks out, you know who gets blamed?
Taija does.
Its Taija's fault.
And for gods sake why did he name her Taija anyway?
As if I am not disrespected enough, lets give her a pornstar name.
As if I'm going to show up to the family gatherings in knee high socks and pasties.
not that he would mind...
-_-
Oh how dark my mind can be.
Hmm,
school is going amazing though!
I have never been so happy with my academic performance.
I guess being a perfectionist can pay off sometimes...