A bittersweet Valentine's Day
Yesterday has got to be one of the most difficult days I have ever lived through. Nick and I went to the Huntsman Cancer Institute to learn the results of the pathology on a lump that he had removed. He has Melanoma! I was so shocked and I am just so scared. There are not words to describe how scared I am. He went in for a PETScan and a CT scan today. We will hopefully iknow the results tomorrow. Nick is having a really hard ttie with everything which is very understandable. I am trying to be strong for him, but it is hard to keep my wits about me and I have a hard time staying strong and upbeat. I just want to cry. I am trying to keep myself really busy so that it doesn't consume me and so I don't dwell on it, but this is really difficult. I am scared to death that his cancer may have spread. He had the lump for a long time and the cancer went undetected for quite a while.
He had a lump removed in 2002 and that was never biopsied. The doctors suspect that that lump may have been cancerous, but no biopsies were done by the health center that did the removal. They should have biopsied it and did not. This could mean real trouble. If there was sufficient evidence, this type of thing is a malpractice lawsuit waiting to happen. I am just so scared and confused right now. I am trying to read all I can, but this stuff is not easy to read and even harder to accept.
I also learned that I got into law school yesterday. I was excited, but it is hard to be too ecstatic when someone you love has cancer. I am glad to have gotten in and I am proud that I was able to do it, but at this point, it isn't that big of a deal. I was accepted to the University of Utah, a top tier school! I will start this fall.
Well, that is all I have to report from here. I'm not really sure how to end this, so...
He had a lump removed in 2002 and that was never biopsied. The doctors suspect that that lump may have been cancerous, but no biopsies were done by the health center that did the removal. They should have biopsied it and did not. This could mean real trouble. If there was sufficient evidence, this type of thing is a malpractice lawsuit waiting to happen. I am just so scared and confused right now. I am trying to read all I can, but this stuff is not easy to read and even harder to accept.
I also learned that I got into law school yesterday. I was excited, but it is hard to be too ecstatic when someone you love has cancer. I am glad to have gotten in and I am proud that I was able to do it, but at this point, it isn't that big of a deal. I was accepted to the University of Utah, a top tier school! I will start this fall.
Well, that is all I have to report from here. I'm not really sure how to end this, so...