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real life update.
- court today was LOOOOONG and BOOOORING. and nothing got accomplished. the kid's trauma evaluations came back, but we're not allowed to read them. the lawyers were all arguing (like a court argue, yes?) about if the evaluations were nessicary, and the diagnosis od Aspurger's in my oldest, and a bunch of other shit that went right over my head.
talking to my lawyer, long story short... nothing got accomplished. we couldn't talk in detail because it was already 1 in the afternoon, and she had to drive 20 minutes in ten, and my dad had to go to work. but we had to go to Denny's first. spicy chicken melt, deliciousness.
- i was aburdly woozy and dizzy in court. and after really. i felt like that since i woke up. i almost fell on my ass in court. i bet that looked awesome. when we got home, my dad pretty much grabbed his stuff and ran out the door (work, ya know). and i went to bed. and i slept until seven this evening. haha, it was dark, it messed me up for a few minutes.
- before i fell asleep, my mom called wanting to know what happened in court. it pisses me off that i told her that nothing would happen... and when she called, she was all disappointed that nothing happened. she gets her hopes up that i'll just come home with the kids after court one of these times, or i'll go in and it'll just be dismissed, or something. she doesn't seem to grasp the concept that I'M IN SERIOUS TROUBLE HERE. and court takes forever. THE WHEELS OF JUSTICE, HOW SLOWLY THEY TURN.
she wonders why she gets depressed and shit. a good way to get depressed is to expect your grandchildren back when you are told that NOTHING WILL HAPPEN. but you know, it's all abotu her anyway, right?
- started this parenting evaluation thing. like the longest and most drawn-out shoot interview ever. i'm afraid of completely burying myself also. because, you know, everything said CAN and WILL be taken the wrong way, warped, and used against me. even though i have nothing to hide, just me saying my parents argue all the time will be enough for them to fuck me out of my kids.
and i have to go back FOUR MORE TIMES. i don't think they understand how hard it is for me to get down there. i think that's the reason actually, that it's so far away and so complicated. they just want to see what they can make me do. to see how badly i want the kids back. the hoop gets put higher, i shall jump through it. the hoop is aflame, i shall jump through it. doesn't mean it's easy though.
- i get $40 tomorrow! (as opposed to the $10 i formerlly got.) so i will buy a present for my mom (her b-day is Sunday) and a plate of sushi. tomorrow.
- wrestle_geek is doing a lot better than i had thought. it makes me really happy. i hould pimp it out for more members. but the members i have, actually reply, and that rocks.
- oh, and this:
- court today was LOOOOONG and BOOOORING. and nothing got accomplished. the kid's trauma evaluations came back, but we're not allowed to read them. the lawyers were all arguing (like a court argue, yes?) about if the evaluations were nessicary, and the diagnosis od Aspurger's in my oldest, and a bunch of other shit that went right over my head.
talking to my lawyer, long story short... nothing got accomplished. we couldn't talk in detail because it was already 1 in the afternoon, and she had to drive 20 minutes in ten, and my dad had to go to work. but we had to go to Denny's first. spicy chicken melt, deliciousness.
- i was aburdly woozy and dizzy in court. and after really. i felt like that since i woke up. i almost fell on my ass in court. i bet that looked awesome. when we got home, my dad pretty much grabbed his stuff and ran out the door (work, ya know). and i went to bed. and i slept until seven this evening. haha, it was dark, it messed me up for a few minutes.
- before i fell asleep, my mom called wanting to know what happened in court. it pisses me off that i told her that nothing would happen... and when she called, she was all disappointed that nothing happened. she gets her hopes up that i'll just come home with the kids after court one of these times, or i'll go in and it'll just be dismissed, or something. she doesn't seem to grasp the concept that I'M IN SERIOUS TROUBLE HERE. and court takes forever. THE WHEELS OF JUSTICE, HOW SLOWLY THEY TURN.
she wonders why she gets depressed and shit. a good way to get depressed is to expect your grandchildren back when you are told that NOTHING WILL HAPPEN. but you know, it's all abotu her anyway, right?
- started this parenting evaluation thing. like the longest and most drawn-out shoot interview ever. i'm afraid of completely burying myself also. because, you know, everything said CAN and WILL be taken the wrong way, warped, and used against me. even though i have nothing to hide, just me saying my parents argue all the time will be enough for them to fuck me out of my kids.
and i have to go back FOUR MORE TIMES. i don't think they understand how hard it is for me to get down there. i think that's the reason actually, that it's so far away and so complicated. they just want to see what they can make me do. to see how badly i want the kids back. the hoop gets put higher, i shall jump through it. the hoop is aflame, i shall jump through it. doesn't mean it's easy though.
- i get $40 tomorrow! (as opposed to the $10 i formerlly got.) so i will buy a present for my mom (her b-day is Sunday) and a plate of sushi. tomorrow.
- wrestle_geek is doing a lot better than i had thought. it makes me really happy. i hould pimp it out for more members. but the members i have, actually reply, and that rocks.
- oh, and this: