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so last night i was reading this book before falling asleep,
the people in this book and the things they were going through
all of it was exactly how ive been feeling lately.
the emotional strain these characters were faced with.
this friendship between two girls that had been tested by new people and new things,
in the end they were together again.
no matter how much one wanted the other to think that they could go on with life just fine without them they both felt this void.
a void that couldn't be filled by any other friend, husband/boyfriend, or sibling.
nope these girls knew deep down that they completed each other.
in a way filled this void of not having a sister by having each other.
like sisters they had their fights, annoyances, and issues,
but like sisters they couldn't stay angry forever because, well they has a past that no one else would understand.
they have their inside jokes, their remember when's.
yeah they weren't sisters by blood, but they were definately sister's.
so as i read this book,
and the story of these two women,
i began crying.
not the controlled a tear here and there cry,
but literally the tears streaming down my face so fast that there was no way i could make them slow down or stop.
so i closed this book and lay there staring out my window, and just thinking, thinking of what to do next.
and the thing is as i woke up this morning i still had no idea what to do.