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aloha everyone! i would like to take the time to say hello to meaghan and petra, and possibly brittany. im not sure if you are going to read my journal, because you said it is my private thing. which is actually true, because i definitely put down like my private thoughts and what has gone on in my life. so i guess it is kinda private, but guess what? thats what happens when you do a LIVE JOURNAL! lol. its alright, im over it. just if you do read this, please do not give pat this! not that i mind that he knows what i think, its just that i need SOMEWHERE to talk about him, and im just too damn lazy to write it down, cuz what would be the point of that?
lol so yeah. my day! what happened today? i came to school. at lunch, i hung out with pat and went to lunch club and visited with pat through the doorway. he made fun of all the "music geeks" and i was just like ugh. but yeah, he also said that hes not coming to the music banquet, but he better come!! i will be sad if he doesn't :( i also have to talk about something. last night at youth, cory and i were messing around, like going up to each other and pinching each others sides. and then he lifted me up and put me over his shoulders and carried me around. and i also gave him a neck massage because he cracked his neck really hard, and it was my fault. and then this guy that i dont even know told him that he didn't think quincy would like that. and then i told ves that, and she was like well i dont think that pat would like that either. and i was like what?! omg! its so totally innocent! i am so over cory that its great. i mean, i'll always feel that little spark, but it doesn't mean anything. i like pat!! its all pat! i would never do anything to hurt him, especially cheat on him! i would never do that, i am not like that! i hope he knows that. cuz its so comfortable when he puts his arm around me and i lean on his shoulder, and he puts his head on mine. it feels so safe...i know that sounds weird, but it does. i mean, i liked him for so long, and now i finally have him. lol that sounds so funny! its true though. although i have realized that we have like nothing in common. i guess opposites attract. cuz hes constantly making fun of like everything i do, but not necessarily me cuz im the exception. which is kinda weird, but suddenly im in his arms, and i dont care at all. which i absolutely love that feeling. theres just one other thing about him. when i was with cory, we were always holding hands, or he would have his arm around me, or we would be touching in some way. but with pat, he really doesn't show his affection. he never holds my hand, he sometimes puts his arm around me, he hugs me when i initiate it, and then he kisses me on the cheek. its weird, im not saying its a bad thing, but its just weird going from everything to nothing. but thats ok, if thats what he wants, then that is fine. i would like to take this opportunity to welcome alana to reading my journal...and i have decided to not give my username to anyone else. so anyone who reads this...please do not give mine to anyone. i have decided that it is too weird having too many people reading it. i mean, if you want to go ahead and keep reading, feel free. just please dont share it with anyone else, because i do put a lot of personal stuff here! agreed? thank you everyone. i would appreciate that greatly! so i saw neverland today! it was good lol. dave and amanda...ooh! lol that was great! haha. it was so real! i loved it! anyways, i must depart! i shall come on later lol. bye bye!
lol so yeah. my day! what happened today? i came to school. at lunch, i hung out with pat and went to lunch club and visited with pat through the doorway. he made fun of all the "music geeks" and i was just like ugh. but yeah, he also said that hes not coming to the music banquet, but he better come!! i will be sad if he doesn't :( i also have to talk about something. last night at youth, cory and i were messing around, like going up to each other and pinching each others sides. and then he lifted me up and put me over his shoulders and carried me around. and i also gave him a neck massage because he cracked his neck really hard, and it was my fault. and then this guy that i dont even know told him that he didn't think quincy would like that. and then i told ves that, and she was like well i dont think that pat would like that either. and i was like what?! omg! its so totally innocent! i am so over cory that its great. i mean, i'll always feel that little spark, but it doesn't mean anything. i like pat!! its all pat! i would never do anything to hurt him, especially cheat on him! i would never do that, i am not like that! i hope he knows that. cuz its so comfortable when he puts his arm around me and i lean on his shoulder, and he puts his head on mine. it feels so safe...i know that sounds weird, but it does. i mean, i liked him for so long, and now i finally have him. lol that sounds so funny! its true though. although i have realized that we have like nothing in common. i guess opposites attract. cuz hes constantly making fun of like everything i do, but not necessarily me cuz im the exception. which is kinda weird, but suddenly im in his arms, and i dont care at all. which i absolutely love that feeling. theres just one other thing about him. when i was with cory, we were always holding hands, or he would have his arm around me, or we would be touching in some way. but with pat, he really doesn't show his affection. he never holds my hand, he sometimes puts his arm around me, he hugs me when i initiate it, and then he kisses me on the cheek. its weird, im not saying its a bad thing, but its just weird going from everything to nothing. but thats ok, if thats what he wants, then that is fine. i would like to take this opportunity to welcome alana to reading my journal...and i have decided to not give my username to anyone else. so anyone who reads this...please do not give mine to anyone. i have decided that it is too weird having too many people reading it. i mean, if you want to go ahead and keep reading, feel free. just please dont share it with anyone else, because i do put a lot of personal stuff here! agreed? thank you everyone. i would appreciate that greatly! so i saw neverland today! it was good lol. dave and amanda...ooh! lol that was great! haha. it was so real! i loved it! anyways, i must depart! i shall come on later lol. bye bye!