Life has a tendency...
...to throw you a curve ball when you expect a fast ball...
I've got a lot on my mind lately - enough that I have to write it down and i resorted to livejournal. not sure if this is going to be a private post or not, we'll see.
Well. I don't want any sympathy but what's really pissing me off right now is that I planned to go to Salem State in september for graphic design. Graphic Design is part of the art department so they have to accept you into the program even if you're already accepted into the college (which I automatically am cuz of joint admissions - also get a 3rd off my tuition cuz of my graduating GPA). I don't want to sound conceited or anything but salem state is fucking stupid for not accepting me into the art program. they are missing out. i have talent and i know it. i may not be terrific right now, but i definitely have potential. you go to school for something to learn how to do it. you shouldn't have to know how to do it to get into a school. if i knew how to do it i wouldn't have to go to school... i could just get a fucking job and make money rather than waste it on fucking salem state.
if you don't know if i'm a good artist check out my website http://myweb.northshore.edu/users/jmineo01/ and judge it for yourself. i made the website in a class, but still, i did it myself.
i want to be a graphic designer. i want to go to an art school to learn how to do that. but i DON'T want to be paying off loans for 10 years after college. i want to be able to buy a car and some day a house. i don't want to live with my mother forever and i just feel like paying rent is like throwing away money. i want to go to montserrat cuz it's in beverly and not in boston (otherwise mass college of art). but i don't know if they'd accept me either.
i could go to salem state as an undeclared major take some art classes and then either re-apply to the art program or have an art teacher recommend me, but it's the whole idea of the fact that they turned me down in the first place. and i guess it's a pride thing too. and i mean, no offense to anybody who goes to salem state, but the people in admissions (at least i assume most of them) are fucking morons. so was the lady in the art department. i had a fake business card and she tried to send me a letter to the address that was on the business card. MORON! why didn't she just call admissions and have them tell her what it was from my application!!! duh! doesn't take a fucking genius. also. i went to admissions before i found out i got rejected from the art program and i told her that i've been playing phone tag with the lady from the art department and i just want to know if my portfolio was accepted cuz i need to set up my classes and she told me that she couldn't help me at all and that i had to talk to the art people. so when i FINALLY got in touch with barbara at the art department and she told me the shitty news she also told me that they send emails to admissions telling them who gets into the art department and who doesn't. ADMISSIONS COULD HAVE FUCKING TOLD ME. they lady could have looked it up and fucking told me that my portfolio wasn't accepted. fucking bitch didn't even try to help me. she hear "applied for art program" and shut her ears off after that. if i had known i would have MADE her check.
now i'm just getting more annoyed the more i write and i need to stop before every word i write is fucking or fuck or shit or bitch or moron. ugh!
the other thing that's kinda pissing me off right now is how often and how quick people are to judge others. now, i'm not saying that i don't judge people, but i really try not to and i try to give people a chance. i caught myself judging someone horribly on sunday and i just felt like a bitch and i really tried to give the person a chance. it's really hard to give someone a chance once you've already negatively judged them, but i did my best and it's not like i'll see that person very often, if ever again (it was an uncle's girlfriend).
i realize how wrong it is for people to judge because people judge me. i just want to say (though maybe only one of them might read this) how fucking rude of you.
let's see... i've been judged as:
A SLUT... LOL!!! wow, you really don't know me. just because i'm glad i'm going to be single when i go on this cruise doesn't mean that it's because i want to sleep around when i get there. i'm not going to go looking for lots of random guys to sleep with. hell, i won't even look for ONE!!! i like my freedom. i like the fact that i'm going to this cruise as a single person so that i can mingle with people and if i meet someone and have a heartfelt conversation, that's great. all i'm looking for is someone i can connect with for the night and maybe we can keep in touch with email if we really do have a heartfelt conversation.
A NERD... maybe i act goofy sometimes, but that's just rude. just because i don't go out drinking every weekend and i'd rather stay in than watch people act like morons doesn't mean i'm a nerd.
IMMATURE... wow. that's another laugh. i think the only way you could see this is that i get frustrated very easily (the curse of common sense). as the aforementioned says i DON'T like to go out drinking and making an idiot of myself because i don't particularly think that is fun. i DON'T act like the average 21-year-old (which most people would say is someone that likes to hang out with their friends on the weekend and hit the bars). if i go to a bar i'd rather go to a place where i can play pool or play darts or listen to a band play and sip on a drink or a beer. i don't go drinking to get drunk, it's a social thing. so immature? not like almost every other 21-year-old (i know that was judging, but i'm using a stereotype).
RUDE or BLUNT... hell yeah i'm blunt. i'd rather tell someone the truth than have them think that i believe something else. i think that's a good thing! at least i'm nice about it. i'm not gonna look at someone and say "you look fat in that". but if a red-head asked me if a yellow bathing suit looked good on her i'd probably say "i don't think yellow is a good color for you, why don't you try blue." (cuz yellow probably doesn't look good on red-heads - but i wouldn't know). maybe sometimes i say things that i probably shouldn't say, but i apologize. i always tell it like it is and i don't think that's a bad thing. i feel sorry for people who feel they need to sugar coat things or lie just so people will like them.
so yeah. those are things that have REALLY been pissing me off lately.
I've got a lot on my mind lately - enough that I have to write it down and i resorted to livejournal. not sure if this is going to be a private post or not, we'll see.
Well. I don't want any sympathy but what's really pissing me off right now is that I planned to go to Salem State in september for graphic design. Graphic Design is part of the art department so they have to accept you into the program even if you're already accepted into the college (which I automatically am cuz of joint admissions - also get a 3rd off my tuition cuz of my graduating GPA). I don't want to sound conceited or anything but salem state is fucking stupid for not accepting me into the art program. they are missing out. i have talent and i know it. i may not be terrific right now, but i definitely have potential. you go to school for something to learn how to do it. you shouldn't have to know how to do it to get into a school. if i knew how to do it i wouldn't have to go to school... i could just get a fucking job and make money rather than waste it on fucking salem state.
if you don't know if i'm a good artist check out my website http://myweb.northshore.edu/users/jmineo01/ and judge it for yourself. i made the website in a class, but still, i did it myself.
i want to be a graphic designer. i want to go to an art school to learn how to do that. but i DON'T want to be paying off loans for 10 years after college. i want to be able to buy a car and some day a house. i don't want to live with my mother forever and i just feel like paying rent is like throwing away money. i want to go to montserrat cuz it's in beverly and not in boston (otherwise mass college of art). but i don't know if they'd accept me either.
i could go to salem state as an undeclared major take some art classes and then either re-apply to the art program or have an art teacher recommend me, but it's the whole idea of the fact that they turned me down in the first place. and i guess it's a pride thing too. and i mean, no offense to anybody who goes to salem state, but the people in admissions (at least i assume most of them) are fucking morons. so was the lady in the art department. i had a fake business card and she tried to send me a letter to the address that was on the business card. MORON! why didn't she just call admissions and have them tell her what it was from my application!!! duh! doesn't take a fucking genius. also. i went to admissions before i found out i got rejected from the art program and i told her that i've been playing phone tag with the lady from the art department and i just want to know if my portfolio was accepted cuz i need to set up my classes and she told me that she couldn't help me at all and that i had to talk to the art people. so when i FINALLY got in touch with barbara at the art department and she told me the shitty news she also told me that they send emails to admissions telling them who gets into the art department and who doesn't. ADMISSIONS COULD HAVE FUCKING TOLD ME. they lady could have looked it up and fucking told me that my portfolio wasn't accepted. fucking bitch didn't even try to help me. she hear "applied for art program" and shut her ears off after that. if i had known i would have MADE her check.
now i'm just getting more annoyed the more i write and i need to stop before every word i write is fucking or fuck or shit or bitch or moron. ugh!
the other thing that's kinda pissing me off right now is how often and how quick people are to judge others. now, i'm not saying that i don't judge people, but i really try not to and i try to give people a chance. i caught myself judging someone horribly on sunday and i just felt like a bitch and i really tried to give the person a chance. it's really hard to give someone a chance once you've already negatively judged them, but i did my best and it's not like i'll see that person very often, if ever again (it was an uncle's girlfriend).
i realize how wrong it is for people to judge because people judge me. i just want to say (though maybe only one of them might read this) how fucking rude of you.
let's see... i've been judged as:
A SLUT... LOL!!! wow, you really don't know me. just because i'm glad i'm going to be single when i go on this cruise doesn't mean that it's because i want to sleep around when i get there. i'm not going to go looking for lots of random guys to sleep with. hell, i won't even look for ONE!!! i like my freedom. i like the fact that i'm going to this cruise as a single person so that i can mingle with people and if i meet someone and have a heartfelt conversation, that's great. all i'm looking for is someone i can connect with for the night and maybe we can keep in touch with email if we really do have a heartfelt conversation.
A NERD... maybe i act goofy sometimes, but that's just rude. just because i don't go out drinking every weekend and i'd rather stay in than watch people act like morons doesn't mean i'm a nerd.
IMMATURE... wow. that's another laugh. i think the only way you could see this is that i get frustrated very easily (the curse of common sense). as the aforementioned says i DON'T like to go out drinking and making an idiot of myself because i don't particularly think that is fun. i DON'T act like the average 21-year-old (which most people would say is someone that likes to hang out with their friends on the weekend and hit the bars). if i go to a bar i'd rather go to a place where i can play pool or play darts or listen to a band play and sip on a drink or a beer. i don't go drinking to get drunk, it's a social thing. so immature? not like almost every other 21-year-old (i know that was judging, but i'm using a stereotype).
RUDE or BLUNT... hell yeah i'm blunt. i'd rather tell someone the truth than have them think that i believe something else. i think that's a good thing! at least i'm nice about it. i'm not gonna look at someone and say "you look fat in that". but if a red-head asked me if a yellow bathing suit looked good on her i'd probably say "i don't think yellow is a good color for you, why don't you try blue." (cuz yellow probably doesn't look good on red-heads - but i wouldn't know). maybe sometimes i say things that i probably shouldn't say, but i apologize. i always tell it like it is and i don't think that's a bad thing. i feel sorry for people who feel they need to sugar coat things or lie just so people will like them.
so yeah. those are things that have REALLY been pissing me off lately.