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I want to love you again. I want to love you like I used to when we were new and I knew that I wanted to be with you forever. I want to love you again but wanting isn't having, and aparently having isn't wanting. I don't want you anymore but I can't let you go. everytime I think of letting go I feel like crying and being sick all at teh same time which irronically enough is exactly how I feel when I think of spending the rest of my life with you. So what do I do? How do I move? Either choice could be the worst mistake of my life. 50/50 play my odds? Has this become what my life is? Has this become my reality. Life living me instead of me living life? Oh well here we go.....i guess I'll find out what happens in the end.