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[tahera]

So my old hard drive is now corrupt too - even though I managed to be able to see it exists on my work laptop, I can't access it. Maybe I could for another $89, but it just doesn't seem worth it anymore.

Meaning, I went ahead and started making a collection of songs on my work laptop instead - maybe I should get a new hard drive for my old computer - I'm sure I can get one for pretty cheap now.

Here's the current song in my head...different video with the song.

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This weekend was way too chill. Most people were out of town or busy in town with guests. Spent it mostly with my cousins.

Next week I'll be in Chicago.

Being 24 feels so old. For as much as I want to experience in life, I really haven't experienced much at all. Granted, I haven't wasted too much of it. But I'm totally guilty of being a dreamer rather than a doer - which is good to an extent, but I just gotta keep my eye on the balance.

On Saturday morning, I sat down and wrote a list of everything I learned on improving myself. For example:

-I should become more comfortable speaking up when I have something to say.

(I knew there was an important point to be made at Friday's meeting, and I told one my teammates - who called me out when the presenter asked "is there anything else anyone would like to add?"...I wouldn't have spoke unless I was called out....and it was worth it! Plus it adds big points to my value as an employee.)

-I should try and create a fairly concise point before opening my mouth, because otherwise I start rambling and I'm more likely to lose my audience....and most importantly, my point doesn't get across.

-I shouldn't let fear of being alone stop me from doing the things I want - especially if they can be done alone. e.g.: Going to Oil & Gas related happy hours.

I really wanted to go to the big happy hour last Thursday, but nobody I knew was going. So I didn't go, I was bummed.

A girl on facebook put up pics the next day, and I saw at least 5 people I knew. This is when I realized, wow I'm stupid. I let the fear of being alone impede on my ability to go out and socialize. And plus, the whole point of these happy hours is to meet and network with other industry professionals - so who cares if I start out alone?

.....Anyway... my full list and background goes on for a couple pages on MS Word currently.... and I'm making good progress on myself overall. Yay :)

I also have a lot of goals I want to achieve. No more running away from them, putting them off, or getting sidetracked. I am on my doing-development track, being successful, and knocking them off one by one.