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I locked myself in my dorm, turned the main lights off and the fairy lights on (it sounds much more magical than christmas lights). I put my favorite Indigo Girls cd on and turned the volume real low than crawled into bed. I want to sleep, I just want to stop thinking for a moment.....
I tossed the covers aside, got up, and paced around my room. I burned some sage, lit a couple candles, sprinkled some lavender water around my room. I crawled back into bed and once again tried to fall asleep....
I kick the covers to the floor and get up, I can't relax enough to sleep. I burn som more sage, and select a candle and pick it up. I sit on the floor, place the candle on the floor and try to meditate for a few moments on the flame. After a few minutes I feel myself relax and for a moment I think its staring to work when...... when the candle falls over and sets a patch of carpet on fire. I beat on it with a teddy bear I have near by. Now I am completely awake.
So I decide to read a book. I look at my shelf and most my books are either school books, magick books, and horror novels. Horror novels, not thats the last thing I need right now. Good thoughts, I need to think positive thoughts. I groan and crawl back on bed.
No this will not work! I am to tired to do anything constructive and yet not sleepy enough to sleep. Perhaps I should embrace this and go get some coffee. I look in the mirror, considering how much I have been hoping in and out of bed I do not look too bad. I brush my hair and touch up my makeup. I hope that Riley is not mad at me for bailing on him. Its so hard for me to make friends, the last thing I want is to alienate the one I have.
I tossed the covers aside, got up, and paced around my room. I burned some sage, lit a couple candles, sprinkled some lavender water around my room. I crawled back into bed and once again tried to fall asleep....
I kick the covers to the floor and get up, I can't relax enough to sleep. I burn som more sage, and select a candle and pick it up. I sit on the floor, place the candle on the floor and try to meditate for a few moments on the flame. After a few minutes I feel myself relax and for a moment I think its staring to work when...... when the candle falls over and sets a patch of carpet on fire. I beat on it with a teddy bear I have near by. Now I am completely awake.
So I decide to read a book. I look at my shelf and most my books are either school books, magick books, and horror novels. Horror novels, not thats the last thing I need right now. Good thoughts, I need to think positive thoughts. I groan and crawl back on bed.
No this will not work! I am to tired to do anything constructive and yet not sleepy enough to sleep. Perhaps I should embrace this and go get some coffee. I look in the mirror, considering how much I have been hoping in and out of bed I do not look too bad. I brush my hair and touch up my makeup. I hope that Riley is not mad at me for bailing on him. Its so hard for me to make friends, the last thing I want is to alienate the one I have.