Home again, home again...(Deary Diary)
[entry code: Dear Diary]
I haven't written in a while.
There's this phenomenon where, say, you were supposed to write someone and you realize you didn't, and you're SO embarrassed, so to avoid further embarrassment of writing the person late and therefor highlighting the mistake of writing late, you avoid writing further...you tell yourself you'll write later, and find a way to make up for it (or something).
So in effect, a small mistake becomes a big one.
That sorta thing is worse, as it usually involves a friend. But, I still believe a similar phenomenon is in effect. I've logged on to livejournal regularly, but often as not I write a message to a friend instead of posting. The other times I think about what I'd post, remember the huge list of things I need to do, and end up leaving the page (either to be REALLY productive or to procrastinate more thoroughly - TV, webcomics, or video games).
I have been busy. I was trying to set up a job in Korea, so that I didn't have to worry when I got back to Arizona. No such luck. Currently, the bottleneck is my criminal background check. It's a little my fault, so I'm very angry about it and everything else that has had a negative influence on it (e.g. the website that innaccurately listed the processing time; the nebulous apostille system; my boss's truancy in determining my last day of work, so that I could accurately plan for my potential first day of work; and the lack of clarity from my recruiters on the whole thing).
I came back to Arizona from Korea late late Sunday (with a missed connection and a couple hastily-rescheduled interviews - that ALSO made me quite angry). I was pretty busy with Korea-application-stuffs up until the bad news (regarding the criminal background check taking longer, and losing the contract), but otherwise I've been recovering and seeing family and friends. It's good, but it could be better. I know I have a lot of other things to do, and it's hard to prioritize properly, let alone keep it in mind.
It's just difficult to remember what's important, what's urgent, and how much I can do within a day. Plus, you know, I'm inherintly lazy.
I haven't written in a while.
There's this phenomenon where, say, you were supposed to write someone and you realize you didn't, and you're SO embarrassed, so to avoid further embarrassment of writing the person late and therefor highlighting the mistake of writing late, you avoid writing further...you tell yourself you'll write later, and find a way to make up for it (or something).
So in effect, a small mistake becomes a big one.
That sorta thing is worse, as it usually involves a friend. But, I still believe a similar phenomenon is in effect. I've logged on to livejournal regularly, but often as not I write a message to a friend instead of posting. The other times I think about what I'd post, remember the huge list of things I need to do, and end up leaving the page (either to be REALLY productive or to procrastinate more thoroughly - TV, webcomics, or video games).
I have been busy. I was trying to set up a job in Korea, so that I didn't have to worry when I got back to Arizona. No such luck. Currently, the bottleneck is my criminal background check. It's a little my fault, so I'm very angry about it and everything else that has had a negative influence on it (e.g. the website that innaccurately listed the processing time; the nebulous apostille system; my boss's truancy in determining my last day of work, so that I could accurately plan for my potential first day of work; and the lack of clarity from my recruiters on the whole thing).
I came back to Arizona from Korea late late Sunday (with a missed connection and a couple hastily-rescheduled interviews - that ALSO made me quite angry). I was pretty busy with Korea-application-stuffs up until the bad news (regarding the criminal background check taking longer, and losing the contract), but otherwise I've been recovering and seeing family and friends. It's good, but it could be better. I know I have a lot of other things to do, and it's hard to prioritize properly, let alone keep it in mind.
It's just difficult to remember what's important, what's urgent, and how much I can do within a day. Plus, you know, I'm inherintly lazy.