I am a hermit
Yes. It has been a while. This is worse than being back in school.
I have a normal life.
And I survived the inevitable physical crash. It killed my Mom. I survived - with a LOT of help from Poli and many others (who know who they are - apparently it is what they do.)
But what do you do after your life's goal, the ambition you have lived for, is accomplished?
I get the feeling that solidifying your position is the next step.
Oh boy. New lessons.
I SO want to run away screaming.
All I have to fall back on is the idea of keeping on doing what I am doing i.e. not shooting myself in the foot. And accentuate the positive... and well, uh, that's about it.
But do I dare raise my sights higher? It seems like I am less likely to shoot myself in the foot if I raise my aim, but I am not certain how far I can push this metaphor.
Ye gawds, am I turning into a conservative? On a personal level?
I am an avid fan of NPR at night (a.k.a. Coast to Coast) as ENTERTAINMENT.
I may be a closet buddhist... which I will be looking into in more depth on my next weekend off.
Come to think of it, I have been invited to or recognized as an advocate of every self-enlightenment movement and religion I have ever done any research into i.e. actually talked to an advocate of said religion or movement.
I do not expect buddhism to prove to be the exception.
Le sigh.
I am, it appears, destined to be a follower of the god of Tae.
I wish there was a catchy foreign-sounding name for the idea of "keep your head down and do what works".
Catchy names are important, right?
Moving RIGHT along...
Bottom line: I am not yet a year past my last surgery.
Waiting a year after major life-altering events before leaping into ANYthing has been a good rule in the past. So I should relax and enjoy my down time/recovery time, right?
Good. I am glad I agree.
I am struggling with a condition known in certain circle as CRS - Can't Remember Shit. Oddly enough, it bothers me.
Mom forgot things too - because someone else was there instead of her. I think my CRS is much more mundane. You know, a mild form of sometimesers (vs. Alltimesrs - yes folks, I write my own material.)
The other thing that I have been focusing on is a line from ACIM (I think) - I am a blessing to everyone and everything around me.
I wonder if the inverse is also true - Everyone and everything around me is a blessing to me. So far... it looks good, but I am being VERY careful about what I allow into my environment.
Baby steps, so to speak.
Ye gawds! Baby steps at my age. It is embarrassing.
But if it keeps me moving forward, so be it.
Besides, very few things embarrass me anymore. Life is good.
Or as my work buddha says: It don't get no better than this.
Yeah. Amos will be 71 this year. He played ball with Charlie Hustle - among other things.
He is an advocate of the little things - brushing your teeth. Enjoying and supporting your family. Personal freedom and responsibility. You know, stuff like that.
He says that just because its been done that way doesn't mean that it should be being done that way. A tradition that is wrong or even just inefficient is just wrong with a history. It isn't right. Or even more right.
Right?
he he
Moving right along... back to bed.
I am learning in my dreams again.
See you there.
I suspect that that may be one of my new axioms - meet and support people living (in?) my dreams.
Or... maybe not.
We'll see.
ttfn
I have a normal life.
And I survived the inevitable physical crash. It killed my Mom. I survived - with a LOT of help from Poli and many others (who know who they are - apparently it is what they do.)
But what do you do after your life's goal, the ambition you have lived for, is accomplished?
I get the feeling that solidifying your position is the next step.
Oh boy. New lessons.
I SO want to run away screaming.
All I have to fall back on is the idea of keeping on doing what I am doing i.e. not shooting myself in the foot. And accentuate the positive... and well, uh, that's about it.
But do I dare raise my sights higher? It seems like I am less likely to shoot myself in the foot if I raise my aim, but I am not certain how far I can push this metaphor.
Ye gawds, am I turning into a conservative? On a personal level?
I am an avid fan of NPR at night (a.k.a. Coast to Coast) as ENTERTAINMENT.
I may be a closet buddhist... which I will be looking into in more depth on my next weekend off.
Come to think of it, I have been invited to or recognized as an advocate of every self-enlightenment movement and religion I have ever done any research into i.e. actually talked to an advocate of said religion or movement.
I do not expect buddhism to prove to be the exception.
Le sigh.
I am, it appears, destined to be a follower of the god of Tae.
I wish there was a catchy foreign-sounding name for the idea of "keep your head down and do what works".
Catchy names are important, right?
Moving RIGHT along...
Bottom line: I am not yet a year past my last surgery.
Waiting a year after major life-altering events before leaping into ANYthing has been a good rule in the past. So I should relax and enjoy my down time/recovery time, right?
Good. I am glad I agree.
I am struggling with a condition known in certain circle as CRS - Can't Remember Shit. Oddly enough, it bothers me.
Mom forgot things too - because someone else was there instead of her. I think my CRS is much more mundane. You know, a mild form of sometimesers (vs. Alltimesrs - yes folks, I write my own material.)
The other thing that I have been focusing on is a line from ACIM (I think) - I am a blessing to everyone and everything around me.
I wonder if the inverse is also true - Everyone and everything around me is a blessing to me. So far... it looks good, but I am being VERY careful about what I allow into my environment.
Baby steps, so to speak.
Ye gawds! Baby steps at my age. It is embarrassing.
But if it keeps me moving forward, so be it.
Besides, very few things embarrass me anymore. Life is good.
Or as my work buddha says: It don't get no better than this.
Yeah. Amos will be 71 this year. He played ball with Charlie Hustle - among other things.
He is an advocate of the little things - brushing your teeth. Enjoying and supporting your family. Personal freedom and responsibility. You know, stuff like that.
He says that just because its been done that way doesn't mean that it should be being done that way. A tradition that is wrong or even just inefficient is just wrong with a history. It isn't right. Or even more right.
Right?
he he
Moving right along... back to bed.
I am learning in my dreams again.
See you there.
I suspect that that may be one of my new axioms - meet and support people living (in?) my dreams.
Or... maybe not.
We'll see.
ttfn