Aug 05, 2007 19:54
I confess I havent gone to mass for the longest time since my new god child's confirmation last week.
I confess that my friends are too diverse taht they can't mix if I put them all in one party but I'll still do it anyway cuz Im turning 21.
I confess sometimes I dont feel loved. Its like "we'll take you with us cuz your here anyways" or "I cant be there for you but you should be there for me OR ELSE!" or ""sorry you're not giving me what i want kk thanks bbye see you later"
I confess I have day dreams.. Alot of them.. they come out of nowhere.. when Im in the middle of the court balling or doing a test or driving on the road, they come unwilled and unbidden. They're about the ideal me, the me I want to become. The ideal image of myles tan. and I feel happy when Im in dreamland but just as quick as they come, they're gone. Then Im stuck here wondering where that dream came from. Whether dunking at 5"5 or getting a 100 or owning a sportscar. They just keep coming.