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I.must.give.myself.permission.to.write.stupidly. Or to write just a little. Something. Anything. I know the first words, even though I'm not sure about them. And I can add at least a little, no matter how wrong it'll be. I can redo it later. I know who to ask to look at it. I just need to open a file and start. It'll be easier tomorrow if I can get at least something started.
... yes, this is half a meditation and half a plea to myself. Because I am not yet drunk enough to be creative and have no one to talk to right now (not surprisingly, since it's 2.12 AM and the only person awake in the entire universe is my mother who is watching Mansfield Park miniseries and who would just say "So go and start writing").
I'll never be a writer, I guess. It's always such a huge effort to start, no matter how important it feels to write.
... yes, this is half a meditation and half a plea to myself. Because I am not yet drunk enough to be creative and have no one to talk to right now (not surprisingly, since it's 2.12 AM and the only person awake in the entire universe is my mother who is watching Mansfield Park miniseries and who would just say "So go and start writing").
I'll never be a writer, I guess. It's always such a huge effort to start, no matter how important it feels to write.