Playing games
I'm not even sure why I like roleplaying, but I do. I'm bad at it. I've never wanted to be an actress. I have great difficulties being anyone but myself (maybe that is the attraction? Trying to get out of myself for a while?).
But it's fun.
Except that now I'm panicking. (I am very good at panicking. I can panic about anything (my personal record is panicking about an English exam) The game this summer is based on Juuni Kokki anime, but Juuni Kokki is based on ancient China, so I'm reading about China. I'm playing a university teacher, so I figure I should have a basic idea about ancient Chinese science and philosophy, but it feels like it usually feels before an exam: everything is in a muddle, and the more I read the less I know.
I know it's silly but I want to be good. I know I'm not good at playing so I should at least be well-prepared.
And I still have a costume to sew.
But it's fun.
Except that now I'm panicking. (I am very good at panicking. I can panic about anything (my personal record is panicking about an English exam) The game this summer is based on Juuni Kokki anime, but Juuni Kokki is based on ancient China, so I'm reading about China. I'm playing a university teacher, so I figure I should have a basic idea about ancient Chinese science and philosophy, but it feels like it usually feels before an exam: everything is in a muddle, and the more I read the less I know.
I know it's silly but I want to be good. I know I'm not good at playing so I should at least be well-prepared.
And I still have a costume to sew.