[TGWTG Kink Meme] If you were gay, that'd be okay~
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ANONYMOUSLY post a pairing and a kink. This meme is open to ALL pairings and ALL kinks. Yaoi, yuri, het; fluffy kinks, gory, gross, ones involving mannequins and water balloons and hair clips - hell, even vanilla if you wish it. I don't care. Just post away, anons!
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Somehow, I don't believe that.
Because every time I close my eyes, I keep seeing *him*. I keep seeing him torturing me -- screaming obscenities at me. And then the times when we're just...talking. When he seems completely normal, except that dead fire in his eyes.
Nash referred to that expression as "the face where the crazy comes off in waves", and somehow, I'm sure that he's not kidding. Seriously not kidding.
And other times, I dream that I'm in...that place.
A dark, grimy place on the inside, pretty on the outside. Dressed in clothes I wouldn't be caught dead wearing -- perhaps it was the first indicator it was a dream. I wouldn't be caught dead wearing those clothes in the daytime.
And in the dream, I'm in pain. Constantly in pain. Alternating between the pinnacle of joy, of sheer bliss and the depths of despair. And the cravings. And the crashes -- crashes that feel like panic attacks.
And *him*. Alternating in that Smeagol/Gollum way of his between this Frollo-esque demon of lust and that gentle, sweet young man that I know -- at least here -- and love so dearly.
*Sea glass*.
I remember sea glass too. *Glass like water.*
Angels carved out of water.
***
When I finally wake, I feel like I've been saved from drowning. I'm gasping for breath, sweat pouring down my face like a frigging waterfall...I need something. Anything.
It's only when I get Pollo to watch MST3K with me that I start to feel a little better. But even in between laughing at the sexist stupidity of HOBGOBLINS and the cheesiness of PRINCE OF SPACE, the dreams start to resurface.
*Dreams pass in time.*
I barely repress a moan of despair even remembering...him.
*Oh, Heidigger, let them pass...*
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