Have you ever?
Have you ever just not wanted to do anything anymore? Have you ever said to yourself 'Why have regrets because you never do anything that you didn't want to'. Have you ever just wanted it to all end in one swift stroke? Have you ever found yourself acting a certain way that you wouldn't normally around people, but find yourself doing it and hate yourself for it? Have you ever realized that where you are just isn't where you want to be? Have you ever had angst, and for legitimate reasons but the reasons are childish? Have you ever not wanted to be with anyone anymore, but find yourself saying inside 'Well that was just silly to begin with'. Have you ever just felt really depressed, and realized that it wasn't because you ARE depressed it's because for that segment of time all of your doings and misgivings just seem to topple on top of you? Have you ever tried to change, and while keeping in the rhythm find that your past is basically fucking you over because you slowed down and thought about what you were doing long enough so that it all catches up to you? Have you ever just wanted not to wake up, but know it's naive and silly but it sounds so good? I fucking really don't like myself right now-but I'm sure tomorrow morning I'll forgive myself anyways;what a shity way to go out.