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Well well well. Here is teh George again.
Yes. Life is obviously full of its ups and downs. I hate my job, love getting the money. I'm close to hating being in another of these damned Shakespeare In the Park productions, but I know I'll love performing in front of an audience again.
I feel the need to break down my life into sections right now.
Job - sucks.
Play - I reserve judgement until performance time. But the forecast is not spectacular.
Love life - Hmmm. I think the best way to put it is that in the circle of friends I tend to see the most, I feel like fucking Mark. Yes, from RENT. I am the only single person around right now, and it makes me feel like absolute dogshit, sometimes, hanging out with these couples and having no one myself to invite to functions or cuddle with or anything like that. I am Mark. I have got, live for, and hide in my work, apparently. Not a nice position.
Religious - Thriving, actually. I'm putting my mind to some experimental esoteric study, working with the ideas of existence after death.
Creative - Have been doing alot of songwriting lately, and have been honing my ideas on a bigger musical project I'm working on.
Friends - I'm not seeing as much of people as I'd like. Kenny is always with Mike, and often with Garrett and Kevin. I feel like I'm intruding, sometimes, when we hang out. And admittedly sometimes I get pissed that Kenny sees Garrett and Kevin more than he sees me, for the most part. I always feel bad about thinking like that. My friends don't have to cater to me, or invite me to every little thing, or anything like that. It's just that I seem to have more time to fill than I'm accustomed to, even if I don't. Normally it's nights. I work during the days, usually. Now I have the play to fill alot of nights, but still.
Ugh. Hate feeling or sounding needy. I should be able to amuse myself without running and whining to people that we need to hang out because I'm bored.
There was the move next door, and there's work, and there's the play. Still, though, I need to find good quality time, two large blocks of it, and set it aside for Laura and Anna. I haven't seen those girls in quite some time.
I think that's all for the moment.
tata, all
Yes. Life is obviously full of its ups and downs. I hate my job, love getting the money. I'm close to hating being in another of these damned Shakespeare In the Park productions, but I know I'll love performing in front of an audience again.
I feel the need to break down my life into sections right now.
Job - sucks.
Play - I reserve judgement until performance time. But the forecast is not spectacular.
Love life - Hmmm. I think the best way to put it is that in the circle of friends I tend to see the most, I feel like fucking Mark. Yes, from RENT. I am the only single person around right now, and it makes me feel like absolute dogshit, sometimes, hanging out with these couples and having no one myself to invite to functions or cuddle with or anything like that. I am Mark. I have got, live for, and hide in my work, apparently. Not a nice position.
Religious - Thriving, actually. I'm putting my mind to some experimental esoteric study, working with the ideas of existence after death.
Creative - Have been doing alot of songwriting lately, and have been honing my ideas on a bigger musical project I'm working on.
Friends - I'm not seeing as much of people as I'd like. Kenny is always with Mike, and often with Garrett and Kevin. I feel like I'm intruding, sometimes, when we hang out. And admittedly sometimes I get pissed that Kenny sees Garrett and Kevin more than he sees me, for the most part. I always feel bad about thinking like that. My friends don't have to cater to me, or invite me to every little thing, or anything like that. It's just that I seem to have more time to fill than I'm accustomed to, even if I don't. Normally it's nights. I work during the days, usually. Now I have the play to fill alot of nights, but still.
Ugh. Hate feeling or sounding needy. I should be able to amuse myself without running and whining to people that we need to hang out because I'm bored.
There was the move next door, and there's work, and there's the play. Still, though, I need to find good quality time, two large blocks of it, and set it aside for Laura and Anna. I haven't seen those girls in quite some time.
I think that's all for the moment.
tata, all