For Gay Boys That Have Committed Suicide, Cuz The Rainbow's Not Enough
Part I
Young, able bodied
Beauty wrapped tight
In a sarcophagus of shame
The linens bound tight
Constricting movement of energy, freedom
Love
Which others have blown away
Like so much dust and debris
And all they know
Is that they don't care to know
You
And you
You lie
There. twitching, crying, telling yourself it's okay
That you belong there, buried in the earth
That you're safe in the dark
Anonymity reigns
Cuz Pain can't take those whom He cannot see
So you lie
Still, gasping for breath
Needing to free yourself
But never really wanting to
Part II
You don't know what love is yet
But you look for it
In each passing gesture on the sidewalk
Lasting a second longer than it should
So you both know
And you think find it in brief smiles
Glances at a urinal
Stares in a crowded subway car
Rocking backing and forth and jamming up
The cacophony of excited things you feel
Cuz eyes speak volumes more than any pair of lips can
And you look up at night and you wish on the stars
For everything you always saw growing up
But which never exactly matched the things you felt inside
And you don't know what love is yet
But you scrounge around websites and ads
And stare at disembodied appendages
And body parts
Which by themselves look quite silly
And you think, deep down
Once it's all done, maybe you'll know what love is
But you never learn, and you keep looking
You don't know what love is yet
So you have nothing to base it off of
And you listen and believe it has to be abnormal
To work
So you hurt, or you ache, and look into your soul
And smile through it
Cuz you don't know what love is yet
And you fear you'll never learn.
Young, able bodied
Beauty wrapped tight
In a sarcophagus of shame
The linens bound tight
Constricting movement of energy, freedom
Love
Which others have blown away
Like so much dust and debris
And all they know
Is that they don't care to know
You
And you
You lie
There. twitching, crying, telling yourself it's okay
That you belong there, buried in the earth
That you're safe in the dark
Anonymity reigns
Cuz Pain can't take those whom He cannot see
So you lie
Still, gasping for breath
Needing to free yourself
But never really wanting to
Part II
You don't know what love is yet
But you look for it
In each passing gesture on the sidewalk
Lasting a second longer than it should
So you both know
And you think find it in brief smiles
Glances at a urinal
Stares in a crowded subway car
Rocking backing and forth and jamming up
The cacophony of excited things you feel
Cuz eyes speak volumes more than any pair of lips can
And you look up at night and you wish on the stars
For everything you always saw growing up
But which never exactly matched the things you felt inside
And you don't know what love is yet
But you scrounge around websites and ads
And stare at disembodied appendages
And body parts
Which by themselves look quite silly
And you think, deep down
Once it's all done, maybe you'll know what love is
But you never learn, and you keep looking
You don't know what love is yet
So you have nothing to base it off of
And you listen and believe it has to be abnormal
To work
So you hurt, or you ache, and look into your soul
And smile through it
Cuz you don't know what love is yet
And you fear you'll never learn.