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Things are going pretty good, I guess. I'm not as sublimely happy as I was not too long ago, but things just don't feel the same, especially at home. My sister has finally moved out, and I am overwhelmed with emotion. I'm not happy for her, like I should be. She isn't happy with herself and until that happens, I'm at a loss. I'm mad at her, because she moved while the rest of the family was in Florida, and didn't tell anyone until after she moved out. She has hurt my mom and dad so much. I can barely look at my mom, who is drowning in this sadness that I can't even readily describe. It hurts. I can feel tears building up behind my glasses... it's pretty bad if I can't even sit here and type about it without getting emotional. I'm sad, because I have never missed anyone this much. We're not as close, and sometimes it feels like she would as soon have nothing to do with me. I can't explain it, but it's a void nonetheless.
I'm still with Tyler. At first it seemed so awkward, more or less because we are so different as far as personality goes. He is a calm natured person...and I, well, I'm an anxiety filled box of nuts. But it's working out pretty good thus far, so no complaints. I love him.
School sucks. I'm so burnt out. I'm not doing so hot either. I've never been below a B student, and actually rarely got below an A. I have never seen so many C's D's and F's in my life. Tests, quizzes, midterms...whatever. It sucks. I don't know what I want to do with my life, but I really wish I would figure it out soon... maybe then I would enjoy putting all of this money and effort into school, and might even feel rewarded. Who knows.
That's pretty much it. I don't do much anymore. School, work, yadda yadda.
I'm still with Tyler. At first it seemed so awkward, more or less because we are so different as far as personality goes. He is a calm natured person...and I, well, I'm an anxiety filled box of nuts. But it's working out pretty good thus far, so no complaints. I love him.
School sucks. I'm so burnt out. I'm not doing so hot either. I've never been below a B student, and actually rarely got below an A. I have never seen so many C's D's and F's in my life. Tests, quizzes, midterms...whatever. It sucks. I don't know what I want to do with my life, but I really wish I would figure it out soon... maybe then I would enjoy putting all of this money and effort into school, and might even feel rewarded. Who knows.
That's pretty much it. I don't do much anymore. School, work, yadda yadda.