ENOUGH ALREADY!!

[tacomagrrl78]

OK, so i'm reading back thru my journal and realizing how depressing and conflicted my life has been lately. this is not me, AND IT PISSES ME OFF! i'm actually a very happy, settled person and it bugs me that i've been so bummed out lately. so here is where it ends. no more feeling sorry for myself. no more giving up. no more accepting life and accepting situations that are bad for me. here is where i start fighting. my life is worth so much more than this. . . and i'm going to take advantage of the time i have to live it fully. i've realized how short it can be. it's really funny. . .after chris's funeral on friday, i think i called just about everyone whose ever meant anything to me and told them how much i loved them. of course, it's still me, and i absolutely suck at expressing my affection for people, so it all came out kinda jagged and i'm sure every single one of them thought i was on crack, but hey, it's all good, because i said it. i even told this girl that i used to work with how amazing i think she is. and in light of how nervous i get when i'm around her, that's a HUGE step for me. (by the way, if my friends back home could read the last few sentences right now - and i'm glad they can't -they would just be giggling endlessly. they all know how i get when i'm into a girl.)

so, my resolution - NO MORE WHINING. NO MORE QUITTING. NO MORE WASTING TIME.
AND ABSOLUTELY NO MORE TAKING ANYTHING FOR GRANTED!