wow
Its 2011
I just went back and read this whole livejournal from 2006. I think I had one before that but I must have deleted it.
I had forgotten all those experiences. As time had passed I had completely glamorized my whole experience at nwsa, regretting leaving it. But reading my posts over again I remember how I felt uncomfortable there. I loved acting but I was not myself. Even though I didn't have the best highschool experience I still think I should have stayed at nwsa or been involved in theatre in other ways. I still can do that now, hopefully I 'll get some will power.
I'm going to start posting here because I don't think any of my connections on here have been on since 07.
I need an outlet. And I'm on the computer wayyy more than I am around a paper journal, sadly, so here goes.
College life. Or lack there of. It is nothing how I had imagined it.
why do I disable myself?
If these are the best years of my life, I do not want to know what the rest of my life holds!
While I am having a moment of self-pity I need to remind myself of how grateful I am for everything I DO have.
..
I feel so confused all the time. In everything that happens in my life all I feel is confusion. I feel every emotion to every situation, its incredibly draining. I wish I could just focus my energy better.
While I'm in an odd mood today, I'm hoping that keeping a journal will get me to be more motivated to do more things. Or it could turn out to be a depressing reminder.
Guess we'll find out.
I just went back and read this whole livejournal from 2006. I think I had one before that but I must have deleted it.
I had forgotten all those experiences. As time had passed I had completely glamorized my whole experience at nwsa, regretting leaving it. But reading my posts over again I remember how I felt uncomfortable there. I loved acting but I was not myself. Even though I didn't have the best highschool experience I still think I should have stayed at nwsa or been involved in theatre in other ways. I still can do that now, hopefully I 'll get some will power.
I'm going to start posting here because I don't think any of my connections on here have been on since 07.
I need an outlet. And I'm on the computer wayyy more than I am around a paper journal, sadly, so here goes.
College life. Or lack there of. It is nothing how I had imagined it.
why do I disable myself?
If these are the best years of my life, I do not want to know what the rest of my life holds!
While I am having a moment of self-pity I need to remind myself of how grateful I am for everything I DO have.
..
I feel so confused all the time. In everything that happens in my life all I feel is confusion. I feel every emotion to every situation, its incredibly draining. I wish I could just focus my energy better.
While I'm in an odd mood today, I'm hoping that keeping a journal will get me to be more motivated to do more things. Or it could turn out to be a depressing reminder.
Guess we'll find out.