Oct 03, 2005 10:40
In answer to all your unanswered,
No, I haven't traded myspace for Lj, I haven't turned into Elicia D. crepit and become bedridden or fallen into a hole somewhere, and well, I haven't really solved any of lives mysteries, as of yet.
I have been feeling more alive and creative than ever. Become entangled in annoyance and smothering with someone who I thought I had fallen madly for, and embraced my lib woman roots of independentness yet again. More in that department but I'm not telling unless you know me well enough to talk to me in real life.
My sister got married, my friend Marc to soon follow in her footsteps today and wed his foreign bride, after a trip to the tanning salon (eww). My sis's ceremony was beautiful, straight to the point, and filled with laughter, wine, and the ever-blessed karaoke.
She was radiant in her simplicity of style and openness of heart, and might I add, looked fabulous in red lipstick. Her beau was cute, nervous, and paid the highest in compliment to my wonderful, crazy sis, and to my parents/family in a speech. I am so happy for them and wish them the best of luck on their vacation to sydney, but know well they don't need any luck wishes for their relationship, in that they do plenty fine.
I escaped with my sanity intact from both the wedding and the pre-dinner after my aunt's constant prodding to embrace the one seeming single man available, and threatened my with placecards for future dinners and how the whiteout buildup on the ones reserved for my "date" might start to make me look bad. Why does everyone seem to think all I want is to be wed and possibly birthing? I am just starting to figure myself out, and though I'd love (for lack of a better word) life partner, I seriously don't want marriage or children. I just want to basque in the fun that life and possibly another companion can bring comedically, inspirationally, and of course physically. Do I want too much? I just need creative electricity flowing about me, and cannot allow myself to be hindered like I have in the past, loosing pieces of my spirit as the relationships grew heavier and more burdensome and damaging. I'm sure everyone who meddles is just attempting to promote some sort of happiness, but what they fail to realize is that it is already present, I'm just looking to have it enhanced by someone.
I have this week off of work as well so I am starting phase two of project organize my life/there's a light at the end of the tunnel, which involves laundry, it's folding, dispertion, rearrangement, and the hanging of a vessel for shoes.
Wish me luck folks, I'm feeling fine.