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[tackula]

Ever since last week I feel like I belong to the crankiest of the cranky. I wake up annoyed at myself for being so cranky, but unfortunately I soon discover that you can't make yourself go away. Millions of things crawl around inside of my brain like lice, finding a spot to focus on and making me more insane

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[lekker]

awww, 'lee, i feel ya...trouble with making your own decisions is having to be responsible for their outcomes and sometimes those are the suckers of life. the other day i was sittin on the pot, ponderin', as i often do when relieving myself, and i thought, man, i really am selfish, i mean why in the hell didn't i wait until i had my shit more together to come to germany? poor paddy's in the throes of "just graduated and yet to be recognized (by employers that is) for all the hard work" blues and in addition he's got to deal with my situation (ie visa troubles, no money, etc.). but then i remembered that it would've been difficult, if impossible, for me to get my shit together there in the desert and though i have your normal "foreigner" problems here, they're really cake comparatively, but hey, i'm used to this shit, and paddy, well, damn if that guy just aint the sweetest, fuckin man, who incidently is madly in love with me, he is adament in his conviction that without me here his life would've been much, much harder not easier. so, the martyr card has to be shuffled back into the deck and saved for a rainy day when my parents are visiting....haha, anyhoo, enough about me, let's talk about you, what do ya think of me? hahahaha...sorry, couldn't resist throwing a lil L7 in the mix....okay, so here's my piece of sage advice:

a friend once told me, "gina, you can't worry about the money, make the decision to do what you want to do and the money will come somehow...may not be the amount of money you hoped for, but it'll be enough, if you really want to do what you set out to do..." or some shit like that...this kind of fits with your boy's advice, make a short list, reasonable and attainable and just do it. don't spend a lot of time thinking about how it should be or could be, just focus on how it is and do it.

okay, now slumping down off my soapbox, but before i completely slither from my perch, one last thing, a few words from the great j.d. salinger:
"i ain't where i could be, i ain't where i should be, but thank god, i ain't where i used to be!" i figure as long as we're moving ahead on that bumpy road 'lee, well than we aint doing half bad.....

[butcherbaby]

damn, that's a good quote. i'm writing that one down. i love his writing anyway.

man o man

[tackula]

Totes. I finally pulled my head out of my ass today. It's so nice knowing people like you are alive, even if you are on the other side of the planet.