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I've been pretty content with life as of late. i'm doing a lot of stuff all the time, but i don't feel overwhelmed. i'm just going with the days. i'm having a little fun, i'm hanging out. i'm pretty carefree at the moment.
and when people have really shitty things going on in their lives, it makes me so grateful. for what i do have, and what i say to try and help them reinforces in me the kind of person i am becoming. and i really like it. i really am becoming who i always wanted to be. and i'm finally content with things just being alright and not huge and grand. i don't need excess to be happy anymore. and i always thought that without the absolute best iwouldn't be completely happy. i've opened my mind a lot, really. and it's doing me so much good. and i'm not getting worried about anything. i'm not freaking out anymore, i'm not doing anything i used to when i thought i was happy. i don't expect a lot from anyone or anything, and i find that it works out a whole lot better. it makes me happy in a quiet way. i don't have to be loud or obnoxious and things dont have to be crazy or a certain way to have a significance with me anymore. but if they are, thats fine. we're nearing the home stretch now. i'm nearing my eighteenth birthday sooner everyday, and i'm really in a good mood about it. high school will be over before we know it, and in some sick twisted way we'll miss it. but i'm patiently awaiting march 31 and also june 3. and then i have other things to look forward to. things are always okay in the end. and i've really come to believe it. even with all the little things going on that make one not want to believe it. and that whole paragraph made no sense at all.
but in other news, i've been diagnosed with adhd. and getting put on medication. i figure, i'll try it. and if i dont like it and it affects my personality at all, i'll be selling those shits by the bottle and opening up a new bank account.
and also, i have a terrible sinus headache.
i should probably get some sleep.
kbye.