Life is...
...hard. Really. Really. Hard. For everyone I'm realizing.
Being at home is so taxing and it makes me sad, guilty, frightened, frustrated, sad, scared, sad... the couple people I did get to see while I was at home really made my day(s). It was good to actually spend time with friends, reconnect and stuff. I feel and get so isolated in Santa Cruz. I missed seeing others of you (you know who you are) and look forward to seeing you hopefully over Spring Break- assuming that we are on similar schedules and no one's out of town.
Tomorrow we are delivering big food baskets and presents to a number of less fortunate families because that's what my mother asked for for Christmas this year. It feels good and I'm looking forward to delivering Christmases tomorrow. As for me, I asked for and got new glasses.
I wasn't supposed to tell anyone about my mother... she tells me later. But, basically I've found out more and it's all bad information. The difference I see in her just from Thanksgiving is really scary to me. The fact that my dad appears to be healthier than she does makes me worry and feel guilty and bad for leaving.
But, for all of the terrible things that have happened in the world and personally, I am thankful that my family is all together this Christmas. I hope the holidays find you and yours well, safe and happy as can be.
I'm leaving Ontario December 26 and will return to Santa Cruz on December 31. So, if I don't talk to you before then, Happy 2006- I hope it brings us all good health, happiness, peace and a little luck. <3
Being at home is so taxing and it makes me sad, guilty, frightened, frustrated, sad, scared, sad... the couple people I did get to see while I was at home really made my day(s). It was good to actually spend time with friends, reconnect and stuff. I feel and get so isolated in Santa Cruz. I missed seeing others of you (you know who you are) and look forward to seeing you hopefully over Spring Break- assuming that we are on similar schedules and no one's out of town.
Tomorrow we are delivering big food baskets and presents to a number of less fortunate families because that's what my mother asked for for Christmas this year. It feels good and I'm looking forward to delivering Christmases tomorrow. As for me, I asked for and got new glasses.
I wasn't supposed to tell anyone about my mother... she tells me later. But, basically I've found out more and it's all bad information. The difference I see in her just from Thanksgiving is really scary to me. The fact that my dad appears to be healthier than she does makes me worry and feel guilty and bad for leaving.
But, for all of the terrible things that have happened in the world and personally, I am thankful that my family is all together this Christmas. I hope the holidays find you and yours well, safe and happy as can be.
I'm leaving Ontario December 26 and will return to Santa Cruz on December 31. So, if I don't talk to you before then, Happy 2006- I hope it brings us all good health, happiness, peace and a little luck. <3