Feb 07, 2005 20:06
i don't know about the rest of the world, but almost always i think of something i ought to have said hours after the fact. take today's conversation...i should have told her the parameters, expressed my disapointment and appreciation, and move forward from there. instead, i pasted on a nonchalant attitude and lacquered my voice with sympathy and optimism...to tired to play games or fire that backhand across the court and too busy to chase after a lost cause. it's been expressed as a zero-sum game and i'm not certain that interpretation is incorrect. i just like to think of it as 'her loss.'
frustration abounds. and all i want to do is survive the next two weeks with my sanity while producing high-quality outcomes. please, let them be high quality.
a chance run-in with a mennonite two weeks ago has left me intrigued. before last night i professed to know nothing of their faith; today, i know some. what i do know resonates - social justice, nonviolence, and women in religious leadership roles. These are all critical elements for me and i refuse to let them be sidelined by dogmatism and tradition. i think i'll explore this one a little more...
i'm really craving cocoa right now but i'm not allowed to have it. damn.