Just putting some of my thoughts down...
I honestly don't think that anyone reads this; however I just really need to put down some thoughts and feelings. These last 3 or so days have been difficult for me, especially at night. I find it so easy to let the tears just pour out. I start to look at things so negatively and then as a result I think back on things and look at them negatively too (even though there is no reason to). A few months ago I was really struggling with things. It was getting closer to the end of the school year, which resulted in quite a bit of stress, and I was just having a really difficult time. I felt really lonely. This went on what seemed like pretty constantly for a few weeks. Shortly after this my principal approached me with some concern and I was seriously considering getting some help. Then it seemed like things got better for a while. Since then, there have been a bad day here and there, but nothing really constant. However, over the last couple days, I've been going back and thinking about that time. A lot of my concerns, fears, worries, thoughts, feelings, etc. from a few months ago just seem like they come rushing back and even combine with new ones. I'm really struggling with whether or not my feelings and emotions are a result of my circumstances or if there is a deeper issue. If there is a deeper issue, I'm sort of afraid about getting help. Or I'm worried that if I seek help, I'll be told my emotions aren't really valid and are just petty. I just wonder when I'm going to get out of this "funk." It's emotionally draining and I can see it affecting other parts of my life too. It's hard to be alone.