what's happenin' at school
so i'd thought that i'd let you in a little update with how things have been going at school. class aren't too bad. i'm enjoying most of them, and so far they don't require too much homework. i'm working three jobs this semester. i'm working for dr. fryar, for admissions, and at an exegetical tutor. (did i already put that in a lj? I don't remember). well anyways, tomorrow i'm going to see beauty and the beast in lincoln. i'm pretty excited, because i love the movie, and i love musicals, so it's a perfect combination. i wrote my younger brother a letter this week. it was over a page typed. i hope that he likes it because he's always saying he wants more letters. i've been trying to chill some this semester and not worry so much about homework. i haven't done any the past two days. becca was proud of me yesterday. last night we went to the men's soccer game. it was very exciting and i'd like to go to some more this year.
talked to my older brother online tonight. i may go out to colorado for fall break, because they are going to be there. then i could see them and rebecca and not have to wait until thanksgiving. also then i can go somewhere else for thanksgiving.
some of my thoughts, put in the form of a poem:
crazy, crazy questions
what makes me the expert?
it's hard when i don't know the answers
or when i know the real answer may hurt them
again i question, what makes me the expert?
i'm trying to figure out things for myself
i'm trying to take that extra step
that leap of faith
i just wish that i didn't have to second guess myself
the frustration won't go away
even as much as i want it to
just keep plugging away one step at a time
maybe, just maybe
the things will turn out the way,
the way you so desperately want them to
it's the waiting
and wondering
that makes the patience wear thin
these thoughts and dreams
frustrations and questions
so much easier to put down in words
does it make the time go by faster?
sometimes, sometimes not
just stop dwelling on what isn't happening
focus on what is
there is so much that you've been blessed with
i'm trying to look at that
but we know it isn't easy
especially when you see others with what you want
you have to more than just smile and nod
you have to be happy inside
for you have to believe that you're time will come
that it will come when it comes
when you don't expect it
that's the end of my ramblings. God bless and have a great weekend!!
love
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talked to my older brother online tonight. i may go out to colorado for fall break, because they are going to be there. then i could see them and rebecca and not have to wait until thanksgiving. also then i can go somewhere else for thanksgiving.
some of my thoughts, put in the form of a poem:
crazy, crazy questions
what makes me the expert?
it's hard when i don't know the answers
or when i know the real answer may hurt them
again i question, what makes me the expert?
i'm trying to figure out things for myself
i'm trying to take that extra step
that leap of faith
i just wish that i didn't have to second guess myself
the frustration won't go away
even as much as i want it to
just keep plugging away one step at a time
maybe, just maybe
the things will turn out the way,
the way you so desperately want them to
it's the waiting
and wondering
that makes the patience wear thin
these thoughts and dreams
frustrations and questions
so much easier to put down in words
does it make the time go by faster?
sometimes, sometimes not
just stop dwelling on what isn't happening
focus on what is
there is so much that you've been blessed with
i'm trying to look at that
but we know it isn't easy
especially when you see others with what you want
you have to more than just smile and nod
you have to be happy inside
for you have to believe that you're time will come
that it will come when it comes
when you don't expect it
that's the end of my ramblings. God bless and have a great weekend!!
love
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