Personal Post: Just Breathe
Here's what I need for tomorrow to go better than today.
First, I need to get a grip on my personal relationships. This may seem pretty vague, but I've been getting in conflicts for almost two days now. I'm trying to make adjustments for hormones and just stress, but part of actually being proactive is recognizing my part in stuff. For example, my roommate went off about me parking in the driveway, rather than pulling my car into the garage. It didn't really matter to him that I had to lug a 40-pound bag of dog food up 14 stairs. Though it would have been nice if, once I explained that I had needed to unload the food and change my pants, he hadn't continued to be mad, I will just pull my car into the garage next time to avoid the headache.
Second, I need some kind of sign that this house-hunting isn't going to be a total disaster. So far, I'm not optimistic. B and I have barely looked and we have to have a place lined up by June 1. He resumed school tonight, and he indicated his parents will not allow him to take time off, so I fully expect I will be having to pretty much solo this. I really need to just trust that the salary issue and the home issue will resolve themselves, and give my partner the benefit of the doubt to pull through this without my micro-managing.
Third, I need to reintroduce some order and control in my life. Buckling down and starting to pack what little I unpacked when I moved in here will go a long way towards allowing me to feel like I have a handle on these really stressful situations. In this, I need to work to really alter my view on my pregnancy to be more accepting and less judgmental of myself in the process. This means I need to be remembering my pleases in the morning, and my thank you's at night.
First, I need to get a grip on my personal relationships. This may seem pretty vague, but I've been getting in conflicts for almost two days now. I'm trying to make adjustments for hormones and just stress, but part of actually being proactive is recognizing my part in stuff. For example, my roommate went off about me parking in the driveway, rather than pulling my car into the garage. It didn't really matter to him that I had to lug a 40-pound bag of dog food up 14 stairs. Though it would have been nice if, once I explained that I had needed to unload the food and change my pants, he hadn't continued to be mad, I will just pull my car into the garage next time to avoid the headache.
Second, I need some kind of sign that this house-hunting isn't going to be a total disaster. So far, I'm not optimistic. B and I have barely looked and we have to have a place lined up by June 1. He resumed school tonight, and he indicated his parents will not allow him to take time off, so I fully expect I will be having to pretty much solo this. I really need to just trust that the salary issue and the home issue will resolve themselves, and give my partner the benefit of the doubt to pull through this without my micro-managing.
Third, I need to reintroduce some order and control in my life. Buckling down and starting to pack what little I unpacked when I moved in here will go a long way towards allowing me to feel like I have a handle on these really stressful situations. In this, I need to work to really alter my view on my pregnancy to be more accepting and less judgmental of myself in the process. This means I need to be remembering my pleases in the morning, and my thank you's at night.