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I'm not a vindictive person. having that sort of a reaction to a person is so damn negative and hurtful and terrible and I just don't have it in me.
what this means is that when I have a vindictive thought, it can often actually keep me awake at night. I feel guilty for even thinking it. but the seed is there. although I'd never ever ever in a million years do it, its perfection as an emotionally loaded kick in the testicles is undeniable.
I'm simultaneously amazed by my ingenuity and disgusted by my low mindedness.
and no, I won't tell you what it is. I can't tell anyone, or else my soul will officially run off to the bahamas.
what this means is that when I have a vindictive thought, it can often actually keep me awake at night. I feel guilty for even thinking it. but the seed is there. although I'd never ever ever in a million years do it, its perfection as an emotionally loaded kick in the testicles is undeniable.
I'm simultaneously amazed by my ingenuity and disgusted by my low mindedness.
and no, I won't tell you what it is. I can't tell anyone, or else my soul will officially run off to the bahamas.