Is it better to have loved?
I just want to send this one out into the void...
When you love someone, how do you know its for real?
I'm I am so sick of my own neurotic brain preventing me from being happy. I always find some way to take a minor relationship flaw and turn it into " we cant ever be together". I close doors and burn bridges constantly. I cannot handle the idea of "maybe". Its torture. It either is or it isn't. But its all up to me to decide that isn't it? If I am scared, its not going to work. If "love" is doubtful, its not going to work. If "love" cant trust me, its not going to work. If I cant trust myself, its not going to work. If the little things get under our skin, its not going to work. There are just so many reasons why things can go wrong. What about, it hurts not to be together? What about "I cant stop thinking about you"? What about "If only you could just touch my hand everything would be ok."? My big question is, am I lovesick or am I just lonely?
When you love someone, how do you know its for real?
I'm I am so sick of my own neurotic brain preventing me from being happy. I always find some way to take a minor relationship flaw and turn it into " we cant ever be together". I close doors and burn bridges constantly. I cannot handle the idea of "maybe". Its torture. It either is or it isn't. But its all up to me to decide that isn't it? If I am scared, its not going to work. If "love" is doubtful, its not going to work. If "love" cant trust me, its not going to work. If I cant trust myself, its not going to work. If the little things get under our skin, its not going to work. There are just so many reasons why things can go wrong. What about, it hurts not to be together? What about "I cant stop thinking about you"? What about "If only you could just touch my hand everything would be ok."? My big question is, am I lovesick or am I just lonely?