One Year
October 20th was our one year anniversary. Woot us! We celebrated the weekend before by going out to eat and just being together. On the 20th, I made dinner and we watched the Princess Bride all curled up on the couch. It was nice and just laid-back.
It's weird to think that a year ago, I was packing all my stuff up to move. The drive across the United States was a year ago... Insane. If I hadn't taken my 2 week trip, it would've been a year since I'd seen my friends... =o.o= Wow... Lol that would've been intense.
November 4-5: My orientation at Toys R Us. From 1pm-4pm I will be there learning about my super cool job! =-.-= Ugh. It's not that I'm not happy to have a job... Ok no, I'm not happy. But that's life. It'll be nice to have an excuse to get out of the house and the extra money (even though it'l all go to paying my mom and Brina back) will be sweet. But I want nothing to do with this place. I just wanted to stay home and count down the days until I could go back home, to California. Stick my head in the sand and wait it out, you know?
But you gotta grow up sometime. I may have been the first to move out and away, but I think I'm the last to really face real life. I've been standing around with my fingers in my ears and refusing to acknowledge the fact that it won't go away just because I want it to.
And don't get me wrong: I don't regret moving here or getting married. I love Tony. I want to be with him and I don't want to live anywhere he's not if I can help it. Regardless of what people say or my doubts.
I don't know if I wrote about that... How while I was depressed and an emotional wreck I started wondering if we actually loved each other, whether or not we were staying together out of love or because we felt we HAD to. Why would we have to? Well, we got married young, and since announcing it, people have been saying it won't last, we're not ready, etc etc. So to prove them wrong, maybe? Or because we've been together so long (5 years in March 2009) that we wouldn't know what to do if we were to break up.
After my little episode though I knew I loved him. I always have, and even if something does happen and we call it quits, I will still love him, even if I don't want to. He's my first real love, you know?
Ahhh! I went waaaaaaay off track! Sorry about that... =>.<=
It's weird to think that a year ago, I was packing all my stuff up to move. The drive across the United States was a year ago... Insane. If I hadn't taken my 2 week trip, it would've been a year since I'd seen my friends... =o.o= Wow... Lol that would've been intense.
November 4-5: My orientation at Toys R Us. From 1pm-4pm I will be there learning about my super cool job! =-.-= Ugh. It's not that I'm not happy to have a job... Ok no, I'm not happy. But that's life. It'll be nice to have an excuse to get out of the house and the extra money (even though it'l all go to paying my mom and Brina back) will be sweet. But I want nothing to do with this place. I just wanted to stay home and count down the days until I could go back home, to California. Stick my head in the sand and wait it out, you know?
But you gotta grow up sometime. I may have been the first to move out and away, but I think I'm the last to really face real life. I've been standing around with my fingers in my ears and refusing to acknowledge the fact that it won't go away just because I want it to.
And don't get me wrong: I don't regret moving here or getting married. I love Tony. I want to be with him and I don't want to live anywhere he's not if I can help it. Regardless of what people say or my doubts.
I don't know if I wrote about that... How while I was depressed and an emotional wreck I started wondering if we actually loved each other, whether or not we were staying together out of love or because we felt we HAD to. Why would we have to? Well, we got married young, and since announcing it, people have been saying it won't last, we're not ready, etc etc. So to prove them wrong, maybe? Or because we've been together so long (5 years in March 2009) that we wouldn't know what to do if we were to break up.
After my little episode though I knew I loved him. I always have, and even if something does happen and we call it quits, I will still love him, even if I don't want to. He's my first real love, you know?
Ahhh! I went waaaaaaay off track! Sorry about that... =>.<=