6 days until im 18
I don’t want to write my English paper or do my Geo project so I decided to update my lj since I haven’t in forever not to mention one of my most important birthdays is in less than a week. Realizing that got me thinking about my last birthday and how fantastic I thought my life was before February 4th, 2005, and then how my life just kind of fell apart after that. It's weird you know, like how you think the world has just ended and you have no one... then one day you wake up and the world is totally different. I guess in life you have hundreds of those little epiphany moments, but today I woke up and really couldn’t believe the total 180 my life has made since last February. I have the most amazing friends I could ever imagine and life is really great again. of course I do miss the memories of late night dancing in the street, stealing orange cones and putting them on peoples cars/doorsteps/in the middle of bust intersections, and driving 4 hours to get to a concert and being the only people there under 40... But you can’t dwell on the past and wish for what once was because then you’ll miss all the fantastic new memories. Last year was the worst and best time in my life. I had never trusted people more yet was turned on at the drop of a hat. I had never been so lonely and miserable, but then it all changed. I reconnected with people I had forgotten about. I have never had friends so amazing I almost don’t deserve it. I am going into this birthday without expectations. I am only going to hope because last year taught me that people surprise you in both good and bad ways. This year I’m hoping for good, even though I don’t think it can get any better.