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Weird past few days/week.
We still haven't begun moving. Just scrubbed the entire place down. If everything goes as planned we should be all moved in by wednesday.. Don't know if Jayme will be able to get our current apartment because of credit issues. I really hope it all works out. If not we're screwed. I don't like that feeling. Things have been so hard lately. Work is FINALLY starting to slow down. The next two weeks are going to be SUCH a nice break. I can't wait to be moved in and organized, and begin working on dance. I swear it's making me depressed the longer I'm away from it.
I hope everything works out. I deserve that. It's tiring putting so much out there and giving everything you've got but you feel like you aren't getting anything back. I guess that means I'm not working hard enough.. or I'm just doomed.
I just need to get through tomorrow and Monday, then I can begin to re-organize my brain and my life.. I'm tired, I'm so tired.
My outlook on life just keeps changing and getting more strange.. it's like the closer you get to figuring out who you are, the more you find all these new places to explore and figure out. I guess I'll never know.. Everything has just been weirding me out lately. I don't know what to make of this odd life I live. I guess the best thing to do is just relax and enjoy whatever the eff is happening right now.
However that works. Being sleep deprived and working probably is not helping.
Wow, for falling asleep on the bus on my way home at 630, I'd say I'm doing pretty exceptional at 4 am.. My eyes hurt.
We still haven't begun moving. Just scrubbed the entire place down. If everything goes as planned we should be all moved in by wednesday.. Don't know if Jayme will be able to get our current apartment because of credit issues. I really hope it all works out. If not we're screwed. I don't like that feeling. Things have been so hard lately. Work is FINALLY starting to slow down. The next two weeks are going to be SUCH a nice break. I can't wait to be moved in and organized, and begin working on dance. I swear it's making me depressed the longer I'm away from it.
I hope everything works out. I deserve that. It's tiring putting so much out there and giving everything you've got but you feel like you aren't getting anything back. I guess that means I'm not working hard enough.. or I'm just doomed.
I just need to get through tomorrow and Monday, then I can begin to re-organize my brain and my life.. I'm tired, I'm so tired.
My outlook on life just keeps changing and getting more strange.. it's like the closer you get to figuring out who you are, the more you find all these new places to explore and figure out. I guess I'll never know.. Everything has just been weirding me out lately. I don't know what to make of this odd life I live. I guess the best thing to do is just relax and enjoy whatever the eff is happening right now.
However that works. Being sleep deprived and working probably is not helping.
Wow, for falling asleep on the bus on my way home at 630, I'd say I'm doing pretty exceptional at 4 am.. My eyes hurt.