I am...
I think therefore I am.
I am healthy.
I am in good shape.
I am blessed with a family that cares about me.
I am making a lot of money and working hard.
I am going back to Merrimack in January.
I am getting a chance to make peace with my family over the next few months.
I am a best friend to some very special people.
I am ambitious and determined.
I am not defined by parties or people.
I am finding a new path.
The glass IS half full. Which only means I have an entire half a glass more to fill with positive things...
right?
Its all about the attitude. I can't keep bringing myself down anymore. And I will NEVER settle. I can't do it. I cant want something that doesnt make me feel something inside, something warm and tickly or burning and firey. I desperately need that. I cannot settle for a comfortable mediocrity. I just can't do it. I am going back to Merrimack because it's the only place in the world that makes me feel more at home than home. I cannot feel something about someone if they don't give me a sense of wonder, and a sense of mystery and a sense of something I haven't had before. Maybe that's just picky, maybe that's going to hurt my chances of a good relationship in the near future. I don't know. But eventually, someone who makes me feel that way again who wants to be with me too, will have been worth the wait.
I cannot play the games, and make myself want what comes my way. I go in the way of the things I want. If something I do not search for or long for happens to come my way, I say hello to it and I keep on going. I will not detour. Because at some point on that road labeled "What I really want"with an arrow pointing forward, that something or someone that I really want is going to be walking in the opposite direction. Right towards me. And their arrow labeled "What [they] really want" will pointing straight at me. And I will be so happy I did not stop and waste time with the things that came by me at those crossroads that I never really wanted in the first place.
Noone reads this anymore. But I still always feel better having written.
I am healthy.
I am in good shape.
I am blessed with a family that cares about me.
I am making a lot of money and working hard.
I am going back to Merrimack in January.
I am getting a chance to make peace with my family over the next few months.
I am a best friend to some very special people.
I am ambitious and determined.
I am not defined by parties or people.
I am finding a new path.
The glass IS half full. Which only means I have an entire half a glass more to fill with positive things...
right?
Its all about the attitude. I can't keep bringing myself down anymore. And I will NEVER settle. I can't do it. I cant want something that doesnt make me feel something inside, something warm and tickly or burning and firey. I desperately need that. I cannot settle for a comfortable mediocrity. I just can't do it. I am going back to Merrimack because it's the only place in the world that makes me feel more at home than home. I cannot feel something about someone if they don't give me a sense of wonder, and a sense of mystery and a sense of something I haven't had before. Maybe that's just picky, maybe that's going to hurt my chances of a good relationship in the near future. I don't know. But eventually, someone who makes me feel that way again who wants to be with me too, will have been worth the wait.
I cannot play the games, and make myself want what comes my way. I go in the way of the things I want. If something I do not search for or long for happens to come my way, I say hello to it and I keep on going. I will not detour. Because at some point on that road labeled "What I really want"with an arrow pointing forward, that something or someone that I really want is going to be walking in the opposite direction. Right towards me. And their arrow labeled "What [they] really want" will pointing straight at me. And I will be so happy I did not stop and waste time with the things that came by me at those crossroads that I never really wanted in the first place.
Noone reads this anymore. But I still always feel better having written.