I think I'm going to bring this back
Its 10:34am on Monday October 9th 2006. I have not updated in a very long time, I actually forgot about live journal and didn't think I was ever going to use it again. But I like to be able to type out my feelings and thoughts on my life...
My life is totally different now. I attend Stockton College now. Everything I ever knew back home is almost gone. All my old friends are doing there own thing now. I made new friends here, but I will never forget where I came from. Its hard to analyze everything when your in the moment, but sometimes I'm just so lost in life. Deep down, I miss my life back home, my friends, my family...I miss my house on Garden Ave. and I miss Pennsauken High School in a weird way. I miss Pennsauken Soccer and how fun it was. CVS Pharmacy...the golf course...driving around aimlessly in my Dodge...wheeling back in the pit with my boys...bonfires with Miller Lite...working on my truck...crazy drinking nights that we could talk about everytime we got together for years to come. I miss everything from back home. Sometimes I'll see, smell, or hear something here at college and it will remind me of something I used to love to do. All those nights where we were so bored and had nothing to do, and everyone was always so pissed that there was nothing to do. I didnt mind those nights, I enjoy the company of my friends. I just liked being with people who understand you and you can share things with and have a good time with, and the people who enjoy your company. Add alcohol to the mix, and emotions would come out, and thats when you find out the truth...in my opinion thats why a lot of teenagers drink. It brings people closer and almost everyone has a good time when they drink. I enjoy drinking because it makes it easier for me to express my emotions, and it makes the complications and questions in life disappear...
Everytime somebody would tell me to cherish my time in highschool, it would go in one ear and out the other. I'm sure that I'm not the only one who took advantage of what we had back home in P-Town. Everyone hated it so much, but we never looked at the bright side of it, and we never looked at our last months there as our last months together forever. There was no first day of school in early September for us graduating seniors. I think it hit me my first day of classes here at Stockton. The feeling was weird, but at the same time happy.
I'm trying to figure out what I want to get out of my time in College. I want a good job and I want to make an ass load of money. The problem is, I'm not trying my best in class and am kind of slacking. The difference between highschool and college, is that I'm spending around 1000 bucks to take a class, and if I dont get anything out of it and fail, then its just a total waste of money. Money is my ultimate goal after college, so its one big circle...basically, I need to do well in class and actually learn something. I'm hoping to make up my mind and have a major by spring semester.
Dont get me wrong...I love it here...its incredible...I just want to see some familiar faces and spend some time doing what I used to do, because I dont want to lose everything I ever knew for the first 18 years of my life.
I want to be at the Rudderrow Cup on the 28th of October. That all depends on how well we do in our season. I won't discuss Stockton Soccer in this post. But I'm starting tonight against Ursinus...big accomplishment right (thats sarcasim). And even though the game tonight is a joke to most people...for one of the first times in my life, I'm nervous to walk to the locker room, dress, warm up, and take the field...i'm nervous.
I'm going to try to keep updating when I get a chance. Maybe there are some people who will stumble across this ancient thing called live journal and read this. Hopefully myspace didnt conquer all...
much love
T
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My life is totally different now. I attend Stockton College now. Everything I ever knew back home is almost gone. All my old friends are doing there own thing now. I made new friends here, but I will never forget where I came from. Its hard to analyze everything when your in the moment, but sometimes I'm just so lost in life. Deep down, I miss my life back home, my friends, my family...I miss my house on Garden Ave. and I miss Pennsauken High School in a weird way. I miss Pennsauken Soccer and how fun it was. CVS Pharmacy...the golf course...driving around aimlessly in my Dodge...wheeling back in the pit with my boys...bonfires with Miller Lite...working on my truck...crazy drinking nights that we could talk about everytime we got together for years to come. I miss everything from back home. Sometimes I'll see, smell, or hear something here at college and it will remind me of something I used to love to do. All those nights where we were so bored and had nothing to do, and everyone was always so pissed that there was nothing to do. I didnt mind those nights, I enjoy the company of my friends. I just liked being with people who understand you and you can share things with and have a good time with, and the people who enjoy your company. Add alcohol to the mix, and emotions would come out, and thats when you find out the truth...in my opinion thats why a lot of teenagers drink. It brings people closer and almost everyone has a good time when they drink. I enjoy drinking because it makes it easier for me to express my emotions, and it makes the complications and questions in life disappear...
Everytime somebody would tell me to cherish my time in highschool, it would go in one ear and out the other. I'm sure that I'm not the only one who took advantage of what we had back home in P-Town. Everyone hated it so much, but we never looked at the bright side of it, and we never looked at our last months there as our last months together forever. There was no first day of school in early September for us graduating seniors. I think it hit me my first day of classes here at Stockton. The feeling was weird, but at the same time happy.
I'm trying to figure out what I want to get out of my time in College. I want a good job and I want to make an ass load of money. The problem is, I'm not trying my best in class and am kind of slacking. The difference between highschool and college, is that I'm spending around 1000 bucks to take a class, and if I dont get anything out of it and fail, then its just a total waste of money. Money is my ultimate goal after college, so its one big circle...basically, I need to do well in class and actually learn something. I'm hoping to make up my mind and have a major by spring semester.
Dont get me wrong...I love it here...its incredible...I just want to see some familiar faces and spend some time doing what I used to do, because I dont want to lose everything I ever knew for the first 18 years of my life.
I want to be at the Rudderrow Cup on the 28th of October. That all depends on how well we do in our season. I won't discuss Stockton Soccer in this post. But I'm starting tonight against Ursinus...big accomplishment right (thats sarcasim). And even though the game tonight is a joke to most people...for one of the first times in my life, I'm nervous to walk to the locker room, dress, warm up, and take the field...i'm nervous.
I'm going to try to keep updating when I get a chance. Maybe there are some people who will stumble across this ancient thing called live journal and read this. Hopefully myspace didnt conquer all...
much love
T
r
a
v