The Very Best.
So, despite the fact that Cory, Nicole and I all make fun of her, I miss jordan. She was my best friend since I was three years old. Thats eleven years of friendship before it broke off. She says Ive changed, but its really she who's different. Its hard to say that she doesnt matter, that I dont care. Its a lie anyways, because I cried the other day over it. Even counting the fact that she has changed and we've lost touch and I hate who she's become, she was my bestfriend, my sister, my only friend at time, my neighbor and so on, for so long. She was the best I ever had. We were utterly incompatable, and completly different. We fought and hated each other. We wanted each other dead. We were the very best of friends. And I miss her despite the jokes and the laughter. Despite my "Im so happy with life its everything I want right now" bullshit. I cant understand how it happened. I cant figure it out. And I know that my life in the future wont be what I always pictured it as without her in it.