May 04, 2008 22:43
i miss it. having closeness with someone
being someones best friend. someone to go to no matter what
someone who would come to me with everything. anything.
i had that one time for a few months. fought for it. put everything on the line for it.
all my friends on the line for it.
and then i lost that bestfriend. to other people who mean more. whp are more important.
i have never. ever had that closeness with anyone but cory. ever.
and when you loose soemthing like that. youll know exactly why it makes me want to bawl.
i mean. she was the only person i have ever had that with!!!! and now we dont even talk. she likes to pretend were still bestfriends. were not. and we never will be. because cory has a way of loving everyone around her. except the person who was always there for her. the very first one.
i miss her so much
i mean i miss jordan. and i thought she was my bestfriend too.
but i miss cory more. because with cory it was different. it was mutual. not just me caring about her.
i dont know how i ever lost that.
the best thing that ever happened to me was having her as my best friend. no joke.
ive lost 3 bestfriends. 2 left one died. its not fair
im not worth it i guess.