can't wait for tonight.
all i can do is laugh... not a humorous laugh, not a sarcastic laugh. it's a laugh of disbelief. there's things that shouldn't be posted on the internet for all to see, but this is my journal. it's quite an overwhelming feeling, but i don't know what it is. it sucks when all the good lyrics are taken...especially the ones the tell the story of your life.
"So this is odd,
the painful realization that has all gone wrong.
And nobody cares at all."
it's true.
everythings wrong but here's the kicker...i don't want anyone to care. i did have tonight off, but now i have to work because of pills. i just wanted to go peacefully tonight...but i guess we really don't always get what we want.
i'm usually not the one to claim emo, but if i must, i succomb to the title. i've never felt more worthless or out of place. i've realized dreams will always be dreams to me, but only because i never wake up.
too bad i'm rebelling against lyrics right now...i'd have a song for everyday. i claim the blame. but i despise the ignorance that has claimed me.
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on a different note...i hung out with the boys for a little bit, and then i decided to go to a little la finca party...
then i went back to zach's...
so it sucks...i'm working again tonight. i hate the deep, personal, "landmark" post just as much as the next guy, but isn't that why they made these journals...maybe i should just posted this on my live journal....i will....so if you want to read it...go to my live journal...otherwise, have a nice day.
"So this is odd,
the painful realization that has all gone wrong.
And nobody cares at all."
it's true.
everythings wrong but here's the kicker...i don't want anyone to care. i did have tonight off, but now i have to work because of pills. i just wanted to go peacefully tonight...but i guess we really don't always get what we want.
i'm usually not the one to claim emo, but if i must, i succomb to the title. i've never felt more worthless or out of place. i've realized dreams will always be dreams to me, but only because i never wake up.
too bad i'm rebelling against lyrics right now...i'd have a song for everyday. i claim the blame. but i despise the ignorance that has claimed me.
~~~~~~~~
on a different note...i hung out with the boys for a little bit, and then i decided to go to a little la finca party...
then i went back to zach's...
so it sucks...i'm working again tonight. i hate the deep, personal, "landmark" post just as much as the next guy, but isn't that why they made these journals...maybe i should just posted this on my live journal....i will....so if you want to read it...go to my live journal...otherwise, have a nice day.