*sigh*
Hi.
So, it's been a while. And this post is long overdue, but this is the first night to myself I have had in quite a while. So it's probably time that I address things. For those of you who have not heard, after almost 6 years, Anne and I broke up about two weeks ago. The actuall night itself was absolutely the worst experience of my life. Since then it has been rough, with good days and bad days (tonight happens to be one of the bad nights).
I don't want to go into too much of it here. Things just weren't working, and I wasn't feeling right in the relationship for a few months. And it kind of built up to the point where I wasn't being myself, and it just was not a good thing. I will say, since that point, I feel like I have a lot more perspective on the relationship and realize how much I really appreciated it even if I had trouble realizing it. I miss her dreadfully, but I'm really trying to give myself time to heal and make sure of what I really want. If we do end up back together, I never want to go through what we did again. But I don't know how much longer I can do this.
Since then, I have been incredibly busy. Between work, wrapping up my class and helping with the non-profit I've been volunteering for, I haven't had much time to myself, which is both a good and bad time. I did go to a few sporting events, and I just got back from a very nice weekend in Vegas, where I saw The Killers and Cirque Du Soleil's LOVE show. Vegas would be disappointed in me, though, as I didn't make any mistakes I regret, I didn't hook up with any floozies, I didn't get married and I only gambled $50 in about half an hour. Although I did drink a little while I was out.
Anyway, I don't know what's next. But that's what is going on. I'm just trying to keep the faith that things tend to work out in the end on the bad days.
So, it's been a while. And this post is long overdue, but this is the first night to myself I have had in quite a while. So it's probably time that I address things. For those of you who have not heard, after almost 6 years, Anne and I broke up about two weeks ago. The actuall night itself was absolutely the worst experience of my life. Since then it has been rough, with good days and bad days (tonight happens to be one of the bad nights).
I don't want to go into too much of it here. Things just weren't working, and I wasn't feeling right in the relationship for a few months. And it kind of built up to the point where I wasn't being myself, and it just was not a good thing. I will say, since that point, I feel like I have a lot more perspective on the relationship and realize how much I really appreciated it even if I had trouble realizing it. I miss her dreadfully, but I'm really trying to give myself time to heal and make sure of what I really want. If we do end up back together, I never want to go through what we did again. But I don't know how much longer I can do this.
Since then, I have been incredibly busy. Between work, wrapping up my class and helping with the non-profit I've been volunteering for, I haven't had much time to myself, which is both a good and bad time. I did go to a few sporting events, and I just got back from a very nice weekend in Vegas, where I saw The Killers and Cirque Du Soleil's LOVE show. Vegas would be disappointed in me, though, as I didn't make any mistakes I regret, I didn't hook up with any floozies, I didn't get married and I only gambled $50 in about half an hour. Although I did drink a little while I was out.
Anyway, I don't know what's next. But that's what is going on. I'm just trying to keep the faith that things tend to work out in the end on the bad days.