Dissed
So, I had an appointment today with a counselor at Sierra. Basically, they're probably going to dismiss me after this spring semester. Actually, they would dismiss me right now except it would take them too long to notify me. t least, that's what my counselor told me. Awesome.
I know I screwed up. I have withdrawn from so many classes the last few semesters. I know the reasons why that happened and I've decided I did the best I could with the situations I was given. Something else had to be my priority for a while. And I stand by that, because I do think I did some good. Maybe not as much as I would have liked, but I'm trying to think it is out of my hands now. I'm going to focas on school. I want to get my units done. But now this counselor is telling me I'm most likely going to get dismissed after spring. I can write an appeal to a panel, but my reasons for being a shitty student are personal. I don't open up to people easily, I don't like to talk about things, and I sure as hell do not want to turn something like this into an essay for a group of strangers to read an decide if its a good enough reason to let me go to school.
After telling me this, my couselor goes on as if this isn't so, and lines out a schedule for me for the next few semesters. Charming. Way to motivate. So its all lined out, I have it here. And then she brings up my dismissal again. She shrugs at me and says, "Who knows, I've seen these computers do some strange things. You might just slip by." ... Are you freaking shitting me? So it all comes down to the computers then? Well, I feel much better then. (You know, I don't call a lot of people on their bullshit when its being said to my face. >_<)
So, there's not much I can do. I'll take my classes next semester and see what happens. If I'm dismissed, I can go to American River again - and do my best not to eat my own hand for it. However, Nick and I are planning on moving to Chico or Humboldt, maybe summer of fall 08. We could go to the Junior college there until we have the credits to transfer. So, in that case, if I am dismissed, there is always that possiblity. But it still makes me feel awful.
You know, fuck Seirra. And American River. Never once while I have been going to junior college have I felt like anyone has wanted me there. I feel like they want my money and my smiling face and nothing else. If I'm struggling, they'll give me an apologetic smile and pat me on the shoulder. If I want to give them money, they'll hold open doors for me. I'm sick of dealing with it.
I'll sign up for my classes tomorrow. There's nothing more I can do but go through the motions until they have the time to tell me to take a hike. Or not. Because the computer might fart. -_-
I'm keeping my sense fo humor about this. I have to.
I know I screwed up. I have withdrawn from so many classes the last few semesters. I know the reasons why that happened and I've decided I did the best I could with the situations I was given. Something else had to be my priority for a while. And I stand by that, because I do think I did some good. Maybe not as much as I would have liked, but I'm trying to think it is out of my hands now. I'm going to focas on school. I want to get my units done. But now this counselor is telling me I'm most likely going to get dismissed after spring. I can write an appeal to a panel, but my reasons for being a shitty student are personal. I don't open up to people easily, I don't like to talk about things, and I sure as hell do not want to turn something like this into an essay for a group of strangers to read an decide if its a good enough reason to let me go to school.
After telling me this, my couselor goes on as if this isn't so, and lines out a schedule for me for the next few semesters. Charming. Way to motivate. So its all lined out, I have it here. And then she brings up my dismissal again. She shrugs at me and says, "Who knows, I've seen these computers do some strange things. You might just slip by." ... Are you freaking shitting me? So it all comes down to the computers then? Well, I feel much better then. (You know, I don't call a lot of people on their bullshit when its being said to my face. >_<)
So, there's not much I can do. I'll take my classes next semester and see what happens. If I'm dismissed, I can go to American River again - and do my best not to eat my own hand for it. However, Nick and I are planning on moving to Chico or Humboldt, maybe summer of fall 08. We could go to the Junior college there until we have the credits to transfer. So, in that case, if I am dismissed, there is always that possiblity. But it still makes me feel awful.
You know, fuck Seirra. And American River. Never once while I have been going to junior college have I felt like anyone has wanted me there. I feel like they want my money and my smiling face and nothing else. If I'm struggling, they'll give me an apologetic smile and pat me on the shoulder. If I want to give them money, they'll hold open doors for me. I'm sick of dealing with it.
I'll sign up for my classes tomorrow. There's nothing more I can do but go through the motions until they have the time to tell me to take a hike. Or not. Because the computer might fart. -_-
I'm keeping my sense fo humor about this. I have to.