[for Shep]
She's dead
Sarah's words echoed through Teyla's mind as she made her way back to New Atlantis. Back to safety and to home. Her feet carried her, she walked on autopilot, nothing else. It was not until she stood in front of her tent, until her hands wrapped themselves around bantos sticks, until she was moving slowly, concentrating on every form that she made that she could drive them out of her mind.
There were things she was not willing to do yet. Go back into her tent to face the clothes Beth had dropped on the floor the other day. To separate her things from the other woman's. To lay in the bed she had slept on with Beth, tangled up together as they talked, their voices low to not carry past the canvas walls. She found herself missing the scent of Beth's cigarettes, the way she swore, how she would watch Teyla undress after working on the building crew all day.
Loss was something she was used to she told herself. Something she had dealt with over and over again. It was part of her life, had always been part of her life. Yet this was a loss she had not imagined.
Sarah's words echoed through Teyla's mind as she made her way back to New Atlantis. Back to safety and to home. Her feet carried her, she walked on autopilot, nothing else. It was not until she stood in front of her tent, until her hands wrapped themselves around bantos sticks, until she was moving slowly, concentrating on every form that she made that she could drive them out of her mind.
There were things she was not willing to do yet. Go back into her tent to face the clothes Beth had dropped on the floor the other day. To separate her things from the other woman's. To lay in the bed she had slept on with Beth, tangled up together as they talked, their voices low to not carry past the canvas walls. She found herself missing the scent of Beth's cigarettes, the way she swore, how she would watch Teyla undress after working on the building crew all day.
Loss was something she was used to she told herself. Something she had dealt with over and over again. It was part of her life, had always been part of her life. Yet this was a loss she had not imagined.