Dec 21, 2004 13:35
you know who you are. you know how have helped me. you know me so much better than i thought anyone like you could ever know me. everything we have talked about has helped me in so many ways. how can i thank you? well, i thought this could be a start.
She walks along the gravel pathway in central park looking for directions. The land, the people, the atmosphere..she is immune to it all. Everyone
has asked has either blown her off, or is too drunk to consider her
(what the hell is wrong with these people? Don't they have even
the slightest bit of decency?). Time to give up? No, she
asks one more person to see if atleast one in an entire city isn't
concentrating on their own small world enough to disregard another in
need.
She walks
with her feet forward and head down. The wind bites your nose and
shuts your eyes if you look straight into it (damn, the weather here is
as cold as the people in this fucking town). Fall is her least favorite season. Every boyfriend, every transfer, it all happens in this routine season. She kicks the leaves irritably as she walks along as if to let them know how she
feels (I hate you for ruining my life you stupid leaves, as if you
could really hear me). It seems as though everyone in the park
has left. No one is there anymore to simply ask how to get from point A to point B although, does she really know where point B is?
Time to turn around. Or atleast, it's time to think that.
Ever had that feeling that you want to do something, but your will
power simply dies down and listens to your gut?
She walks along the lonely path as if she will miss something if she turns around now. She is looking for something...but doesn't really know what to do if were to find it. I guess that all changed when she actually found it.
"Excuse me," she managed to say. (Collect your thoughts. Don't tell him whats really on
your mind. "You have the most beautiful eyes and I bet if we were
to sit down to get to know each other, we could find out that we are
perfect for each other." Stop it, you are making yourself look
stupid.) "If you could possibly spare me one minute of your time,
would you mind helping me find my way around this town? I seem to
have gotten myself more and more lost just looking for help."
He reads her eyes. He can see what she has been through. He has been there before. Once a lost individual in a world filled with insensitive souls.
"I can spare the rest of my day to show you around if you'd like." (By
the looks of it, I'd spare the rest of my life for someone like
you. Don't get ahead of yourself. She is only looking for directions. Don't think too much of this.)
She turned around and started walking, her head up this time. As she walked along, she made sure to let the leaves fall gently around her without making a fuss. He accompanied her. She let him.
(It feels good to walk with someone other than your worst enemy.
Other than myself.) If only they knew what the other one was
thinking...
"Fall is my favorite season." He wondered if that could start small talk. Her mind seemed distant.
"Mine too." She
didn't want to base this spark off of a lie, but it wasn't a lie.
Not anymore at least. (I love his eyes. I think we could be
perfect for each other. Fall is my favorite season!)
They walked through the park in silence. Fall is her most favorite season...