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i just stumbeled across the link to nick haiders website. i never got to reading the last few entries. till tonight.
i cant stop crying.
why do babies have to die? too young to see anything but the hospitals. never get the chance to do anything but sit, and stare, and suffer. yes, they are in a better place now. but they never got the chance to live here. to see the world. the world they kno is the hospital. thats it. makes me greatful for the life i have. ive had thoughts about what would happen if i died at this age, and ive worried abiyt driving soon and accidents and everything...and idk just dying..and ive been scared as hell.. but after readint that...im just glad ive got to live the life i have. seeing the world, having a family, friends, school. 16 years is a long time. yea itd be nice to live a longer life. but compared to many babies including nick. ive lived plenty.
once again.
R.I.P. nick.
i cant stop crying.
why do babies have to die? too young to see anything but the hospitals. never get the chance to do anything but sit, and stare, and suffer. yes, they are in a better place now. but they never got the chance to live here. to see the world. the world they kno is the hospital. thats it. makes me greatful for the life i have. ive had thoughts about what would happen if i died at this age, and ive worried abiyt driving soon and accidents and everything...and idk just dying..and ive been scared as hell.. but after readint that...im just glad ive got to live the life i have. seeing the world, having a family, friends, school. 16 years is a long time. yea itd be nice to live a longer life. but compared to many babies including nick. ive lived plenty.
once again.
R.I.P. nick.