Oh you're in my veins, and I cannot get you out
Author: t8kmybreathaway
Title: Oh you are in my veins, and I cannot get you out
Fandom: Grey’s Anatomy
Pairing: Callie & Arizona
Rating: PG to NC17
Summary: Arizona leaves for Africa breaking both Callie’s heart and spirit. Crisis strikes and Callie is forced to go home to Miami. Arizona returns to find Callie a shell of herself. Can Arizona return and save her before it’s too late?
Disclaimer: All television shows, movies, books, and other copyrighted material referred to in this work, and the characters, settings, and events thereof, are the properties of their respective owners. As this work is an interpretation of the original material and not for-profit, it constitutes fair use. Reference to real persons, places, or events are made in a fictional context, and are not intended to be libelous, defamatory, or in any way factual.
A/N: I know I just started a fic, but I cannot seem to get the plot bunnies to stop leaving little pellets of ideas around my head. So a new fic for you! The song for those of you who do not know is “Stay Close Don’t Go” by Secondhand Serenade.
Spoilers: Season Seven if you haven’t seen it… shame on you! JK :D
If you leave me tonight, I’ll wake up alone.
Don’t tell me I’ll make it on my own.
Don’t leave me tonight.
This heart of stone will sink ‘til it dies,
If you leave me tonight.
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She watched Arizona walk away from her; away from them. Just like everyone else before had; she abandoned Callie without so much as a backwards glance. Callie didn’t understand. How could she just leave her like that? They were supposed to have a future together! They had survived a shooting! They were supposed to have it all; children, dogs, and chickens! Chickens!
Couldn’t Arizona see Callie was giving up her whole life? She was giving up everything - her friends, her family, her career - all for Arizona and Africa. Didn’t she realize that Callie was willing to leave it all behind because her life was nothing without the blonde surgeon? Didn’t she see that Callie chose her? Loved her? Couldn’t she see that without her the Latina just couldn’t breathe?
Callie’s mind raced. She couldn’t turn it off. Watching the retreating form of Arizona was like watching those Sarah McLachlan commercials about the dogs that needed a good home and you couldn’t find the remote to change the channel. It broke her heart each and every time.
“I’m sorry. I’m sorry.” Arizona said quietly looking down at the floor to avoid Callie’s eyes.
Callie stared at her incredulously, “You’re sorry? You’re sorry?” she shrieked. “It’s three years!”
“I’m going to miss my plane,” Arizona felt the tears welling in her eyes and looked down at her feet, “You take care of yourself.”
“No. No! Please. Please. I can- We can- We can do this. We can figure this out,” Callie shook her head. She was begging her not to leave.
Arizona looked at her, “You stay here and be happy. And I’ll go there and be happy.”
“If you get on that plane,” Callie threatened Arizona not knowing what else to do. “If you go without me we are done. Do you hear me? We are over,” her eyes searched the blonde’s face for a sign that she wouldn’t go but she found none.
Arizona swallowed hard as she met the Latina’s gaze, “We are standing in the middle of an airport screaming at each other. We’re already over.”
Callie sat in the hard airport chair with her head in her hands between her knees and her bags at her feet. She couldn’t believe that just happened. She just stared at the floor sitting as still as possible afraid that if she moved she’d burst into tears. But the tears came anyway, followed by sobs. It was like she took Callie’s heart right out of her chest and threw it on the ground before the stomped on it continuously.
She said we were over. I gave her an ultimatum and she still left. She didn’t pick me. She didn’t love me. She couldn’t have if she left me begging her not to go in the middle of the airport. She brings her fist to her forehead trying to will herself to stop crying. An hour later she hasn’t moved. She can’t bring herself to. What if she comes back? What if she changes her mind? What if I really am what she wants? Her thoughts tormented her.
Two hours later, she’s finally stopped crying and her brain is starting to remind her that she has nowhere to go, no job to go back to. She had nothing. She called the only person she could think of. “Hey,” he answered on the second ring. “Finally in the air?” he questioned. Silence followed. “Cal? What’s wrong? What’s going on?” and just when she thought she couldn’t cry anymore her tear ducts overflowed. “Where are you?” he asked.
She could already hear him throwing his coat and shoes on. “Airport,” she managed to get out through her sobs. Half an hour later strong arms wrapped around her fragile frame and pulled her up from where she was sitting and held her tightly.
They were sitting in his black Range Rover Sport now and she was trying desperately to stop crying. “What happened?” he asked gently.
“She-She left without me,” Callie sniffled. “I gave her an ultimatum and she left,” Callie cried into her hands.
“Okay, let’s just get you home, okay? Everything’s gonna be alright,” he said gently.
“Alright?” she shrieked. “I have nothing! No job, no apartment, and-and n-no Arizona…” she sobbed.
Mark sighed heavily and kept his mouth shut for the duration of the ride for fear that Callie might have another outburst and bust his eardrum. He pulled up outside of the apartment building and cut the engine. “You can stay with me tonight, I’ll take the couch,” he told her as he grabbed her bags from the backseat.
Mark dropped her bags inside the bedroom and went right to the freezer to pull out a pint of Ben & Jerry’s Cherry Garcia. He handed it to her and sat on the chair across from the couch. “Do you want to talk about it?”
“Mark, she left. She didn’t look back. Even when I told her if she got on that plane without me we were done. I all but got on my knees and begged her not to do this,” Callie said sadly. “She didn’t want me to go.”
“You are ruining Africa for me!” Arizona spat at her. “You’re ruining this for me. And I don’t want to do this,” she said sadly. “I don’t want to go to Africa with you,” Arizona said as a matter of factly.
“You really didn’t want to go,” he said breaking through her thoughts.
“I don’t want to talk about it anymore,” she sighed and set the pint of ice cream on the coffee table. She spent the entire night sobbing into his pillow because it didn’t smell right. It wasn’t Arizona and she wasn’t here. She was gone, in Africa, without Callie. “You stay here and be happy. And I’ll go there and be happy…”
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If you leave me tonight, I’ll wake up alone.
Don’t tell me I’ll make it on my own.
Don’t leave me tonight.
This heart of stone will sink ‘til it dies,
If you leave me tonight.
Title: Oh you are in my veins, and I cannot get you out
Fandom: Grey’s Anatomy
Pairing: Callie & Arizona
Rating: PG to NC17
Summary: Arizona leaves for Africa breaking both Callie’s heart and spirit. Crisis strikes and Callie is forced to go home to Miami. Arizona returns to find Callie a shell of herself. Can Arizona return and save her before it’s too late?
Disclaimer: All television shows, movies, books, and other copyrighted material referred to in this work, and the characters, settings, and events thereof, are the properties of their respective owners. As this work is an interpretation of the original material and not for-profit, it constitutes fair use. Reference to real persons, places, or events are made in a fictional context, and are not intended to be libelous, defamatory, or in any way factual.
A/N: I know I just started a fic, but I cannot seem to get the plot bunnies to stop leaving little pellets of ideas around my head. So a new fic for you! The song for those of you who do not know is “Stay Close Don’t Go” by Secondhand Serenade.
Spoilers: Season Seven if you haven’t seen it… shame on you! JK :D
If you leave me tonight, I’ll wake up alone.
Don’t tell me I’ll make it on my own.
Don’t leave me tonight.
This heart of stone will sink ‘til it dies,
If you leave me tonight.
<><><> | Prologue | <><><>
She watched Arizona walk away from her; away from them. Just like everyone else before had; she abandoned Callie without so much as a backwards glance. Callie didn’t understand. How could she just leave her like that? They were supposed to have a future together! They had survived a shooting! They were supposed to have it all; children, dogs, and chickens! Chickens!
Couldn’t Arizona see Callie was giving up her whole life? She was giving up everything - her friends, her family, her career - all for Arizona and Africa. Didn’t she realize that Callie was willing to leave it all behind because her life was nothing without the blonde surgeon? Didn’t she see that Callie chose her? Loved her? Couldn’t she see that without her the Latina just couldn’t breathe?
Callie’s mind raced. She couldn’t turn it off. Watching the retreating form of Arizona was like watching those Sarah McLachlan commercials about the dogs that needed a good home and you couldn’t find the remote to change the channel. It broke her heart each and every time.
“I’m sorry. I’m sorry.” Arizona said quietly looking down at the floor to avoid Callie’s eyes.
Callie stared at her incredulously, “You’re sorry? You’re sorry?” she shrieked. “It’s three years!”
“I’m going to miss my plane,” Arizona felt the tears welling in her eyes and looked down at her feet, “You take care of yourself.”
“No. No! Please. Please. I can- We can- We can do this. We can figure this out,” Callie shook her head. She was begging her not to leave.
Arizona looked at her, “You stay here and be happy. And I’ll go there and be happy.”
“If you get on that plane,” Callie threatened Arizona not knowing what else to do. “If you go without me we are done. Do you hear me? We are over,” her eyes searched the blonde’s face for a sign that she wouldn’t go but she found none.
Arizona swallowed hard as she met the Latina’s gaze, “We are standing in the middle of an airport screaming at each other. We’re already over.”
Callie sat in the hard airport chair with her head in her hands between her knees and her bags at her feet. She couldn’t believe that just happened. She just stared at the floor sitting as still as possible afraid that if she moved she’d burst into tears. But the tears came anyway, followed by sobs. It was like she took Callie’s heart right out of her chest and threw it on the ground before the stomped on it continuously.
She said we were over. I gave her an ultimatum and she still left. She didn’t pick me. She didn’t love me. She couldn’t have if she left me begging her not to go in the middle of the airport. She brings her fist to her forehead trying to will herself to stop crying. An hour later she hasn’t moved. She can’t bring herself to. What if she comes back? What if she changes her mind? What if I really am what she wants? Her thoughts tormented her.
Two hours later, she’s finally stopped crying and her brain is starting to remind her that she has nowhere to go, no job to go back to. She had nothing. She called the only person she could think of. “Hey,” he answered on the second ring. “Finally in the air?” he questioned. Silence followed. “Cal? What’s wrong? What’s going on?” and just when she thought she couldn’t cry anymore her tear ducts overflowed. “Where are you?” he asked.
She could already hear him throwing his coat and shoes on. “Airport,” she managed to get out through her sobs. Half an hour later strong arms wrapped around her fragile frame and pulled her up from where she was sitting and held her tightly.
They were sitting in his black Range Rover Sport now and she was trying desperately to stop crying. “What happened?” he asked gently.
“She-She left without me,” Callie sniffled. “I gave her an ultimatum and she left,” Callie cried into her hands.
“Okay, let’s just get you home, okay? Everything’s gonna be alright,” he said gently.
“Alright?” she shrieked. “I have nothing! No job, no apartment, and-and n-no Arizona…” she sobbed.
Mark sighed heavily and kept his mouth shut for the duration of the ride for fear that Callie might have another outburst and bust his eardrum. He pulled up outside of the apartment building and cut the engine. “You can stay with me tonight, I’ll take the couch,” he told her as he grabbed her bags from the backseat.
Mark dropped her bags inside the bedroom and went right to the freezer to pull out a pint of Ben & Jerry’s Cherry Garcia. He handed it to her and sat on the chair across from the couch. “Do you want to talk about it?”
“Mark, she left. She didn’t look back. Even when I told her if she got on that plane without me we were done. I all but got on my knees and begged her not to do this,” Callie said sadly. “She didn’t want me to go.”
“You are ruining Africa for me!” Arizona spat at her. “You’re ruining this for me. And I don’t want to do this,” she said sadly. “I don’t want to go to Africa with you,” Arizona said as a matter of factly.
“You really didn’t want to go,” he said breaking through her thoughts.
“I don’t want to talk about it anymore,” she sighed and set the pint of ice cream on the coffee table. She spent the entire night sobbing into his pillow because it didn’t smell right. It wasn’t Arizona and she wasn’t here. She was gone, in Africa, without Callie. “You stay here and be happy. And I’ll go there and be happy…”
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If you leave me tonight, I’ll wake up alone.
Don’t tell me I’ll make it on my own.
Don’t leave me tonight.
This heart of stone will sink ‘til it dies,
If you leave me tonight.