Mar 21, 2008 00:56
I have a lot of clarity. Ask me anything and I can give you an answer, whether through simple knowledge or other means. I don't just mean things like "what is (insert ambiguous word here)." I mean things like, "Why am I having nightmares?" Or, "What do I need to do to improve my life?" I can find my own answers too. Like, "Am I going in the right direction? Why does this bother me so much? How do I move past it?"
And I know all the answers, and I know what I have to do. But acting on it is difficult. Remembering my own advice is challenging. Especially when I get caught up in things. Things like guilt, and being hurt.
Despite recent hardships, I feel good now. At least in some aspects. My feet are where they should be, as is my heart. As always, I was right. I have yet to be inaccurate.
I've been frazzled since Monday. I guess getting mugged bothered me on a deeper level than I'd realized. But I'm going to go camping with Mark, and I'm going to relax and let go of all that. I'm looking forward to it.