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Sometimes I wonder if I'm anorexic...because whenever I get stressed or feel like I'm losing all control, I stop feeling hunger. Or when I do feel hunger, I also feel nauseous...which then makes me not want to eat.
I've dropped about 5 pounds in three days. Without trying. I just am not eating because of all the bullshit going on. I hate being so sensitive to problems, I hate being hormonal and depressed and a bundle of nerves all the time.
I keep telling myself I deserve better and I need to let go...and I can around some people. Like Andy...he does make me feel better about myself, like how I used to be. But at the same time my mind won't let go. It won't let me stay happy once I'm alone again. I've been sitting around feeling like I was going to cry since probably around...11 today? ish?
I wish I could let go.
I've dropped about 5 pounds in three days. Without trying. I just am not eating because of all the bullshit going on. I hate being so sensitive to problems, I hate being hormonal and depressed and a bundle of nerves all the time.
I keep telling myself I deserve better and I need to let go...and I can around some people. Like Andy...he does make me feel better about myself, like how I used to be. But at the same time my mind won't let go. It won't let me stay happy once I'm alone again. I've been sitting around feeling like I was going to cry since probably around...11 today? ish?
I wish I could let go.