Oct 04, 2010 21:52
Within the past few days, I've confided in both chuluojun and liuxiaoyi about my deepest stories.
It's amazing how a small little thing can create a spark that ignites a flame and pushes me to share, share with others stuff I've never told anyone and never will.
It all started with a video chuluojun tagged me on facebook. And it led to a long story sharing time.
As for liuxiaoyi, because he forced me to think back about certain stuff and to write him a short article on it. I had to pour my heart and soul in it. Bringing back memories that I've kept buried for the past 6 years and 5 months. A memory that I won't recall until that day.
It's really weird that I've told these two guys things I had kept so close to heart for years. Stuff I will never ever allow myself to think of or think about.
Seems like I'm a different person now.
I am no longer who I am.
And I am being kept in his prayers.
On a side note, I realise I think in English. Has to be that way. Because I blog in English, I write in English, I do everything in English. I will only do it in Chinese when I am forced to, or it's school related stuff.
Memories is such a mysterious thing. Even language has an imprint on it.
randomness is my middle name